1.6.03

St. Germain gave answers: what is ‘Change’ / ‘I am Presence’ explained / explained why manifestation does not happen – how to do it.

(To Kaushal) We are watching you. We hear you every morning. Get rid of your doubt. Poor Sai is also tired of telling you that.

(To Pervez) Little one, what would you like us to speak about?

Open your heart. Accept, little one, the changes that will come into your life.

When you don’t change you ‘hang’. What is at the beginning of change? ‘C’ = ‘See’. ‘See’ that which you need to remove and overcome.

WHAT IS CHANGE? It is only ‘new growth’. All of you look at change as something to be feared. And the truth is, you dig for yourselves little ditches and ruts. And you stay in these for long periods with complete comfort. And then when you are asked to move out of this rut you fear the climbing out. Often the rut that you have dug is so deep, that you have to claw your way out of this ditch. Yes, your fingers will bleed and your knees will be badly mauled. But when you are out of that ditch, you will see a horizon you have never seen. When you have buried yourself in a place, from where, all that you can see is a small strip of the sky, when all around you can only see the large walls that you have erected, you begin to become acclimatized to this environment. So there is a degree of comfort and security. Ask most persons whether they would prefer to sleep on a bed that is comfortably wide, or one that is over-sized. They will opt for one single bed. The vastness of space and the freedom that it brings is ‘scary’. Your ruts that you dig are also narrow, very limited.

- One wall will always be of RELATIONSHIPS, always.

- Another wall always be of some MATERIAL/ FINANCIAL obstacles that you

THINK you face.

- Another wall will always be of GREED.

- And the fourth, the one that you do not see because it is behind your head, is the wall of your CONDITIONING. Because it is behind you, you are not aware that it exists. You do not see it.

But you see the other three very clearly. And you make futile attempts to break these walls. But all you do is actually make them higher and stronger. THAT IS WHAT CHANGE IS, LITTLE ONE - CLIMBING OUT OF THAT ‘RUT’.

But in order to climb, you must first change the position that you are in. When you are in your rut, you are in a reclining position. There is no fight that you will put up. The walls keep getting higher and you will keep lying there, without making any attempt to stop their growth. But when you have to climb, you have to STAND. And you have to stand on your own feet. You have no other feet, upon which you can stand. And when you climb out, this too you have to do on your own. No Master will climb down into your rut, in order to push you out. But if you are tall enough, and the ‘SIGHT’ IS EXPANDED ENOUGH, when you look around on all four sides, will we be; Angels, Masters and loved ones with their hands extended. You can hold on to any and as many and they will easily pull you out. But you must STAND for this. YOU MUST STAND!

Now you are wondering: what is all this metaphorical rubbish Germain is talking about? My child, (Pervez) is wondering when he is he going to give me a clear reply? I hear you. So let us be clear now.

What does this metaphor mean then? As you grow physically, as you grow older, every passing year leaves its impressions upon you. You can compare these ‘impressions’ to the ‘bricks’ that you use to make your wall. These impressions also make OTHER walls, which are INTERNAL, not only external. These internal walls are the ones that I have called ‘a rut’. External walls are easier to break.

What are these internal walls? Every time that you have felt the ‘punch’ of someone’s disdain, every time you have felt the ‘slap’ of another’s ‘rejection’, every time you have felt the ‘kick’ of another’s ‘abandonment, you have run into a corner to protect yourself.

(To Roxanne) The back is only the ‘area of manifestation’. Once again she has blocked the throat. This is also an example of RESISTANCE TO CHANGE. But we will go into that later.

So from every ‘hit’ you protect yourself. And how do you protect yourself? By first running into small corners where you think no one will find you. Soon you come out of these corners, but you may not come away with your ‘full energy’. A part always stays behind in that corner. Crouching in fear, the fear of once again being hit. And the hit comes again and again and again from different sources. And you keep running back into this corner. The more you run back into that corner, the more this corner EXPANDS. Soon the corner has become a ‘rut’. As it expands, it becomes more comfortable to stay there. You stop challenging your Ego. Your Ego is allowed to have full mastery over you.

Again what is the Ego? Not necessarily vanity and pride. Ego is so much larger than that. The Ego that you allow mastery to is the EGO THAT IS THE RESULTANT MANIFESTATION OF YOUR FEAR. This is the rut that you sleep in. Often the Universe intervenes, and in a manner that you might sometimes call manipulative, takes you towards the mission that you have come to fulfill. But it can only take you in that ‘direction’. It is really up to you to follow it. Often, you do not follow it and go onto a path that will not lead you where to wish to grow.

As your ‘self’ internal being grows, and it will, there begins a conflict that arises. ‘My life is not what it should be’. You know that, you feel that truth. And you hunt for the answers. But again you hunt from inside your rut. The strip of sky that we had mentioned is this. You look for answers but the walls are so high that you can only see a strip of the sky. The complete sky is hidden from view. And then what does your ‘conditioning’ take this ‘thin strip’ to mean? ‘These are the only answers there are! There is nothing more’. And a feeling of inadequacy and discontent grows, because a strip of sky is now not bright enough for you. But the sky cannot ‘contract’ itself. YOU have to expand.

Take another example: Think of yourself as being in an airplane. When you are inside the airplane and you are looking out of a small window, you see no sky. All you see are people rushing around; you see baggage; you are in your little airplane and you see the people scurrying around and you see the ‘baggage’. But have you ever noticed that you never see ‘your own baggage’? You see that of someone else. Yours is securely kept in a ‘hold’! You do not see it.

When you are in an airplane, you are giving up the reins of your control to the Pilot. You have to. You have no choice. When this is done, you have two reactions, of which the first is the most common. FEAR! Who is this unknown Pilot? You rarely see him. Sometimes you hear his voice. This Pilot is YOUR HIGHER SELF. You rarely see him. Sometimes you hear his voice. ‘But will this pilot take this plane to safety and to the destination required? Will he in fact hold these reins securely? Or will he go to sleep and desert me?’ There are a few, very few with another reaction. They decide to sit back, close their eyes and sleep through the journey till the journey has reached its end. But, a few look out, still through their small windows and suddenly the vista has changed. You can see thick clouds as you have never seen them before. And what seems to be a ‘hitch’ and an obstacle, this brilliant pilot goes through with ease. And in fact, when you are surrounded by this cloud and you can see nothing, only its whiteness, you look out, still from your small window but you see a small ray of the sun penetrating through. And you heave a sigh of relief, that this clever pilot has kept his plane afloat through the clouds. And this pilot is very good. He can take this plane even higher. And then when you look out of the window, you see that there are clouds, yes, but where are they? They are BELOW you. You have risen so much above them. And then these clouds do not seem to intimidate at all. They appear like fluffy playful shapes. And soon you forget that you are in an airplane. You forget that your window is small. Because you can see a vastness of the sky that you did not even know existed.

But, for that you must allow the plot to fly. If you insist and keep the pilot ‘hostage’ and say ‘no, you cannot take this plane up’ the pilot will agree. He may even walk out of that cockpit. And you will be left looking out through a small window at baggage and scurrying people who really seem to be going nowhere. And now see the irony. You are able to place the reins of your physical flight in the hands of another human, but you are unable to place those reins in the hands of your Higher Soul!!

But as told to you by the Master this week, many of you have taken a step. You as Light Workers with full commitment have given your Higher Selves the permission to fly your aircraft. Your physical life is an aircraft. When you have given this permission, now if you keep asking the pilot: Tell me your height, tell me the weather, how long is it, are you sure you can fly this aircraft? . . ... . The pilot will throw you out! (Laughter)

Aah! But there ARE those in the aircraft that you DO ask these questions to: And they attempt to answer them, sometimes patiently and sometimes not so patiently. And they are those whom you call ‘flight attendants’. They serve you. They are there to take care of your needs. Now the little one here is wondering: let me guess who the flight attendant is in my life. Your flight attendants are ALL THOSE who have SERVED you and some … some flight attendants are gentle and patient, some rather hostile, who ask you only to shut up (laughter). These flight attendants are the ones who give you ‘rejection’, make you feel insecure. But on every flight there will be at least one who will be gentle, who will look after you.

So you made a choice and now you are in your aircraft. And you have taken off. And now leave it to the pilot. THIS IS CHANGE. What are the various changes? From Earth the plane has only taken off! CHANGE! Where it was this moment, it is not the next. CHANGE! From one altitude it has climbed and gone higher. CHANGE! When the destination is near, it will lower the altitude. CHANGE! Come back on to land. CHANGE! Was that so terrible? And you didn’t fight it at all! Because you had given the reins of control to the pilot. THAT is why you didn’t fight it or question it. Did you question the pilot? What is the speed at which this plane is flying so that it can take off? Where is the runway going to end? When are you going to take off? What will you use? You left it to him. And you went through the change without ever experiencing it as ‘change’. But, every moment that you were in that plane, you experienced change.

So how best can you meet the changes in your life? When you give up the reins of control, you accept change without question. In fact the change is so smooth, that you do not even know there is change. But one moment when you looked out you saw a little fluffy cloud and you just took two moments to look around at your fellow passengers and turn back – there is no cloud! You left it behind! Now there is just blue sky! CHANGE! Did you experience it consciously? No.

But if you are unable to give up the control, you then come to the situation which I said was ‘hanging’. Very, very often, as in many cases in the past with many of you gathered here, it has been a ‘physical’ hanging or some other means of taking complete control. Those who commit suicide do so, when they feel a complete lack of control, which they so desperately need. What is greater control, than having control over your own life and its end? It is the point of desperation that is required. But if control is just handed over willingly, you will not experience that desperation. It will be with an ease and a gentleness that you will face that which you need to face. Yes, sometimes your aircraft will face little air-currents and the altitude that you have reached, will suddenly drop. And there will be this huge fear in the pit of your stomach that will come up, and make you feel as if you were sick. You need to expel. Yes, that can happen. But so what? All that it is is only an air current. Your pilot is skilled. He knows how to meet these air currents. Do not worry. Every time your plane hits an air current and falls, will you rush into the cockpit and tell the pilot: ‘now give me the controls and I will fly’. If you do that your co-passengers will put you straight away into a ‘straight-jacket’! (Laughter) You wait and you pray that the pilot knows his task. But the pilot does. The pilot does. Yes, pray. Your every prayer will give added strength to the pilot. When you pray you give your Higher Self the added strength to take you through that air-pocket, but don’t magnify the air-pocket into something that is large and disastrous. It feels very terrifying. But what is it? A small eddy of air. How terrifying can that be? CHANGE!

When do you ‘hang’ yourselves? When you rush into that cabin and cease control. You are not equipped to fly your plane. But the pilot is. The greatest difficulty in change is trust. But whom do you trust? The pilot – your Higher Self. It is so difficult to trust when the aircraft is being buffeted by the winds, when the pilot is definitely not flying a straight course. Then your mistrust comes up. Is this Pilot very new? Has he had enough experience? AM I GOING TO DIE?

This is the irony of control. The reason why you do not give up complete control to anyone is the FEAR OF DEATH! And yet what is the greatest example of taking control? Causing personal death! But can you not see that it is not really parallel. It is the same situation. ‘If I cause my own death, here and now, I will never have to face death again. I do not have to distrust. My control and my death is in my hands.’ Hanging. Not always literally, but metaphorically, always.

When a change comes into you life…. let us assume the change in a job situation. Where does the control come from? I must search for the job. I must know where my present job will take me. I must know who are the people who are above and below me. But which ‘i’? A small little ‘i’. When you give up control to the pilot, he takes you to a destination which you have not even been able to see!

Is CHANGE more clear? And change does not mean what you all THINK it means. What you all FEAR it means. Change does not bring with it adversities, traumas, difficulties. How can they? Do you know that you have changed so much in these past few minutes? Do you know how many cells in your body have died? You are not the same person who entered. In fact when you leave, the internal changes of the cells will be so numerous that you will not be the same person at all. But you have the ‘illusion’ that you are the same.

So you see little one, there are many, many situations that you have no control over. Can you insist that the cells in your body stop dying? Can you insist that the blood stops purifying itself? You cannot. And the ‘Soul-conditioning’ tells you that that is not an area where you need to have ‘control’. But ‘soul-conditioning’ over lifetimes has made THREE areas very strong in your life. RELATIONSHIPS, MONEY and JOBS. And there are so many areas, that you haven’t even paid attention to. So it is time now to take these changes as though they were cells that were dying out. When cells die, other cells are born. But, the physical must age and therefore when one million cells die, not a complete million are created.

(to Pervez) Do you have any more questions?

The’ I am Presence’ is far vaster than just the Higher Self. When you wish to merge with this ‘I am Presence’ you are looking at ‘divinity’ itself of which you are a part. But sweet one, the ‘I am Presence’ is so much in the future. First is the ‘Higher self’. Not one, remember. All. And as you merge with each Higher self, you are in fact merging more and more with your ‘I am Presence’.

Yes little one?

Aah! That is a wonderful question. Why does a plane crash? Have you ever heard that a pilot deliberately crashes the aircraft? Never. And yet there are crashes. So what happens? The Higher Presence is interfered with constantly. The Ego barriers are put up greater and greater. The connection between you and Higher Self becomes fragile. It is then that the Higher Self takes a decision ‘not to interfere’. It is the Ego that is allowed to take full control. And often the plane crashes. Now let us take the same example. What happens to an aircraft that might make it crash? Can it be the loss of an engine? Loss of fuel? Controls not working or working erroneously? Bad weather? All our external. All are external. And the skillful pilot fights against these externals. But try as he might sometimes, he fails. Because the Ego barriers refuse to allow the connection to go through. These physicals then overcome the skill of this pilot. And they crash! The Ego is your very best friend. But it is your friend when YOU USE it. It is a bad friend when your EGO USES you. It does not use you with the same compassion. It then becomes your ENEMY. These are the externals.

Yes my son?

Your Higher Self is asking you to SEE WHERE YOU CAN REACH? But do you stay there? You do not. You always come back. And you come back with only faint memories. You never return with the true energy of that flight.

Ask your aircraft. Your aircraft pulls you down from that altitude. Ask your aircraft.

Your Higher Self can only go where the aircraft permits it to go; it is limited by the weight and size of the aircraft. The pilot cannot fly by himself and leave the plane in midair. Your lowest energy - your lowest energy are the heights that you will reach. It cannot go beyond.

Yes little one?

MANIFESTATION! We will take that up. Yes. The pilot is constantly in touch with the Air Control, taking suggestions, getting guidance, but eventually the decision is taken by the pilot. The Air Control only knows the ‘illusion’ of reality. It sees something on a small screen and then interprets what it has seen. It is the pilot who ACTUALLY sees. So he takes the eventual decision. So little one, you too must be like this pilot. Of course you must take guidance. Of course you must ask for advice, as there are others wiser than you. So that MUST be done. But must you accept ALL as YOUR truth? THAT is what you do. And that is why you are so often in conflict. Because when you ask one person for advice, you have accepted it completely, as: yes, this is what I need to do. Then you speak about that situation to another, who gives you advice which is completely opposite. And you say: yes, this is what I should do. But when it comes to the time for action, you realize that you have said ‘yes’ twice. If not more. And then you say: now which ‘yes’ is the right one? And when you do that, you eventually act not at all. So what you need to do my little one: take advice, but you must not decide ‘yes’, because that person has said ‘yes’. You decide because it is YOUR truth. And you will know it is your truth, when contrary opinions DO NOT CHANGE that truth. Let that be your truth.

But this takes us to a far larger subject, which this little one, (referring to Nandanie) has been anxious to hear about.

Manifestation. Generating yourself. You used the right word. Manifesting is generating your ‘Self’. We know you haven’t understood it. And we are not going to leave you doubtful today.

The first step in manifestation is ‘SEEING RIGHT’

When there is a manifestation that is required - because EACH ONE is a creator - the first step in manifestation is ‘SEEING RIGHT’. THAT is important. When your vision itself is impaired, how will you manifest perfection? That is why many of you have done so much and implemented so many of the rules and of the Masters and found there is no manifestation. When there is no manifestation, you must EXAMINE your SIGHT. What do YOU see as the truth and what IS this illusion that you are wrongfully calling the truth?

Before manifestation, it is very essential to examine for a while your sight, your vision. BE AWARE of all that you see and BE AWARE of HOW YOU INTERPRET all that you see. If ALL that you see is interpreted constantly through a ‘judgement’ - ‘prejudicial viewpoint’, you CANNOT manifest. Because the very first step is blurred. Vision has to be CLEAR. When that vision is clear then whatever you wish to manifest must be SEEN in its CLARITY. And now we are not talking of LARGE truths. . . . . . . .. . .. .

It may be a car, a job, a relationship, or it may be completely insignificant in a larger perspective. It may be just getting tickets to a movie.

But it is not insignificant for you. In fact, what YOU MUST STRIVE to manifest, are SMALL details first. There the vision can have greater clarity, because the view to be seen is not too large. All of you at present try to manifest ‘spiritual growth’. (Laughter) Can you even SEE this? You can’t. How are you going to manifest it? WHAT are you going to manifest? You will manifest THAT WHICH YOU SEE and what you see right now is BLANK. (Laughter – and some one clapped once)

(Looking towards Yezad) Someone wanted to applaud! (Hearty laughter from everyone)

I’m on a roll! (Germain seemed very amused at the use of this expression.)

So start with small manifestations where the vision is not strained. So you see this vision in all its clarity.

See clearly and then ask yourself about your INTENT, that is the next step. INTENT! What is the PURPOSE FOR THIS MANIFESTATION? Do you want a job to prove to others that you are good?

Do you want success and growth as a medium, so that your Ego mind will say ‘I can also do it’?

INTENT! What is the intent? At every stage remember, little ones, the pilot is in charge. When the pilot disconnects from the aircraft, there is no manifestation possible. But where there is an opportunity for management, where there is an opportunity for management of the manifestation the pilot is in charge. So what is the INTENT? Why do I require this? What is the PURPOSE of my manifestation? The movie ticket? Is the manifestation in order to have a good evening out with the one I am fond of? Or is it so that you can tell everyone: ‘I saw this movie but you have not yet been able to see it. Aah! I got the tickets! You didn’t get them!’ So STUDY the INTENT. In your case little one (to Syrus) study the INTENT for that which you have asked us. Your INTENT comes from concern and love for this little one but the intent is to keep control yet. Ponder over this.

When the intent is CLEAR - and it must be AS CLEAR AS YOUR VISION – not dimmed and not veiled by what you would like it to be. For manifestation, HONESTY IS ESSENTIAL.

When that intent is clear, now comes the TASK OF ACTUALLY USING THE TOOLS for this manifestation. The tools are many and diverse. Some we have taught to you and some other Masters have taught. You can use whatever tool is right for YOU. Many of you try to use all the tools all at once. And once again all that you have is sheer confusion! (Laughter) The Spirals and the Holograms all merge into one ‘maze’. So you need to then decide ‘which tool is the right one for me’. The Masters have taught you so many. Use one and focus upon it.

Remember, ALL tools only deal with ENERGY. Whether you are looking at spirals, that you are able to transmit from your hand-chakras, whether you are looking at a hologram, which is nothing but a creation of a structure of ENERGY, which in its geometric shape, permits manifestation. Is it a prayer? All these are only ENERGY tools. You need not use any. Devise your own. You can do that. YOU can do THAT! They are only tools. When you use this tool you must first know the energy that you are working with. WHAT is energy? How am I linked to energy? How can I manipulate this energy, to give it the form and structure and density that I require? YOU MUST KNOW THAT ! THIS IS ESSENTIAL FOR MANIFESTATION. You cannot manifest out of ignorance! You will manifest greater ignorance ! (Laughter) So manifest out of KNOWLEDGE!

Let us assume this child is ill. And you have now decided to manifest her health. You must then have first ‘VISION’. You must be able to see her as a ‘whole and healthy soul’. Not as a ‘body’. You must see her as an Aura that is not being ‘fragmented’. You must see her as an ENERGY, that is not scattered and ‘out of ease’. Then comes the INTENT. The intention is: her health. WHY? So that you can be called a good healer? No. So that you give her the Universal Energy that she at present seems to be lacking in. THAT is intent. ONLY to be a pipe through which this Universal Energy that she is lacking in, will now come to her. Are you intending a cure? INCORRECT manifestation! Now clear is SIGHT and even clearer is INTENT. Now comes the TOOL. As a healer you will decide: I will use the Spirals as given to me by the Master. Now you must UNDERSTAND what these Spirals are. HOW do they emanate? Do they just appear? Yes, the Master has told me to raise my hand. Raise your hand as high as you wish and no Spiral will come. What are you doing when you raise your hand? The raising of the hand is not important. Why has the Master asked you to raise it? With this physical movement, the ‘physical mind’ focuses on the Universal Energy that needs to be transmitted. That is the purpose of raising your hands. You can have your hands in your pockets and still have the benefit of the Spirals. Because all that you see when you raise your hand, must be the ENERGY. THIS energy LINKS with Universal energy, WHICH YOU KNOW MOVES IN A SPIRAL FORMATION. Once your Spiral connection is complete, you can pass this on into HER aura. You don’t need to tell this energy what to do. The energy knows. TOOLS! UNDERSTAND the tools.

You wish to manifest wealth. Wonderful! The more of you who manifest wealth, the greater there will be wealth to share with all. Manifest it in larger and larger quantities. What is the INTENT? WHAT IS THE INTENT? SHARING! Does this mean that all that comes to you, you give away? Now don’t be foolish. How can you give away what you do not have? When you give away wealth, what you really give is YOURSELF. Be full in yourself FIRST and THEN give away. How silly it is to live in ‘self-imposed poverty’ because of an illusory belief that ‘it is charity that makes me spiritual’! What is charity? Giving wealth? That IN ITSELF is NOT charity at all. Charity is GIVING OF YOUR ENERGY. And you give of your energy, knowing that you can never be poor in it.

So you wish to manifest wealth and the Master has given a Hologram. So the whole band-wagon (laughter) will prepare Holograms WITHOUT knowing at all the ENERGY STRUCTURE. And then will complain: It did not work. You did not have Vision, you had incorrect Intent, and you certainly did not know the energy. Where is the manifestation going to come from? So you study the energy structure of the Hologram. This child was unable to channel the energy structure and it was channeled through another. Do you recall, my son (to Yezad) The energy structure has been explained. THAT is what you must KNOW, IN ALL CLARITY, when you use the Hologram. That is step 3. USING THE RIGHT TOOLS, USING THEM WITH COMPLETE KNOWLEDGE.

Step 4 is EXPANSION OF YOURSELF so that the manifestation can ENTER.

You (to Nandini) go through 3 steps and falter at the fourth. You do not expand yourself enough for welcoming this new energy.

So you wish to manifest a ‘car’. Expand yourself enough so that there is place for the car to enter. At present, you have ‘contracted’ it by stating ‘I have no car’, ‘I want a car’, ‘I need a car’, ‘I’d be happier with a car’. EXPAND! I HAVE A CAR ! Not easy. Because with that statement, MUST COME THE CERTAINTY ! I HAVE A CAR ! THERE IS NO DOUBT. So what if I cannot see it yet?

Which means the air around you is only an illusion – you cannot see it. It does not exist. Light does not exist. You never see light. You only see that which is reflected. In fact YOU do not exist, because this physical that you see, is NOT YOU. You never see who you really are. You do not see your energy. So by that same reasoning YOU do not exist.

But he says I KNOW. (Laughter) And THAT IS WHAT EXPANSION IS. ‘I KNOW’.

The last, is joined to this. When you KNOW, IT IS PRESENT, HOW can you then keep saying ‘WHEN’? IT ALREADY ‘IS’ !! When means a future period of time. And there is none of it. So when….. now or never.

Generation is not easy is it.

But START with it in a SMALL way. WE URGE YOU ALL. DO IT ! Do not wish to manifest something large. You are not yet ready for that largeness. You do not have the patience which is required, to manifest something large, Because of the amount and intensity of energy that you need to work with. So with small – yes, insignificant details in your life – ATTEMPT MANIFESTATION! Attempt it every time! You cannot fail. And when it does not manifest, LOOK at the INTENT, look at the VISION. You will find the answer then. Is this clear?

St. Germain blessed the sitters and the meeting ended.

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