We have 5 short clippings today. Interesting class. Very interesting. It’s an answer to your constant wondering, what is my mission in this life. What we sometimes get confused with is "Is what I am doing in my life, a past life residue or is it my mission?" It could be either. The past life residue could be very interesting phenomenon.

This occurs very often in relationships; relationships outside the marriage, more often than not. And generally the statement is "I feel as though I have a past life bond with her or him." It might be true. But the question is do I have to have a relationship with him/her on that basis? You see that is the main conflict there. We have relationships in the past with so many people. Does one have to get into a romantic relationship on that ground? I have no problem with extra-marital relationships; let me make that very clear. I have no judgment on that; in fact I find that sometimes they are extremely healthy. But to get into a relationship thinking so-and-so and I have been lovers in the past …..That seems a little off. That’s your past life residue kicking in.

Bonds exist between people and just as they exist in relationships, they exist in the kind of people we are and what we do. But do they have to be the present reality because of the past life residue? That is the question we are going to discuss today.

We are going to first take the incidence of a young lady called Mary. Kryon gives her a very unusual title; "Mary the Barren."

Mary, even as a child was a ‘mother’. Most girls like playing with dolls. I hated it. Now I understand the past life residue existing in that. I have to learn nurturing.

Mary was unlike that. She was a mother and where most girls would play with one or two dolls, Mary would play with 10-20 dolls, all at one time; looking after them, feeding them, changing their clothes and so on.

Whenever anyone asked Mary, as we do with little children "What do you want to become when you grow up?" Mary would say "I want to be a mother" and that seemed so right.

As Mary grew up and was a teenager, she adored baby-sitting. She was a marvelous baby-sitter and all the weekends were booked because everyone in the neighborhood wanted her as their baby-sitter. The children loved her. Whether the child was rambunctious and extremely naughty, or mild, they all adored Mary. And so Mary was absolutely certain that when she grew up she would have a relationship with a man who wanted a large family. Mary didn’t believe in having just one or two kids. She said "no, I want to be a mother of at least 10 to 12 children. So I am going to look for a guy, who is going to want the same." And amazingly she did find, in this time and day, the man who not only wanted so many children but had the financial means and security for such a large family. And Mary was ecstatic.

But within the first six months this ecstasy died because Mary didn’t conceive and when she went to her gynecologist she was given the very tragic news that she was barren. And she was shattered. She knew, deep in her heart, that she had been a mother for incarnations, of very large families and that her whole purpose in this life was to be a mother.

When she was given this news she was shattered. Her husband didn’t want to adopt. He wanted his own biological family. He wanted his blood to run in the veins of his children and therefore on the heels of one tragic news, followed very quickly another. Her husband divorced Mary because he wanted to have his own large family.

And now Mary was very angry. Mary had always been a very gentle, loving person and for the first time in her life Mary was angry; and she raved and ranted against this God who had given her what she thought was her mission to be a mother but had made her barren. She railed against the injustice.

Mary lived alone but very often she would get calls in the middle of the night from young mothers who didn’t know what to do when their child was crying or had a colic attack. One had hurt his head; another had been bitten by a dog. And they would all call Mary, and Mary instinctively knew just what to do. And she was really angry at this God, who would give her all the knowledge, this intuition, this instinctive wisdom and make her barren.

For many years Mary was very, very angry at God, and herself, and therefore society at large. The only ones she wasn’t angry with were children. Till one day, Mary met a woman, who spoke to Mary about blueprints and choices and past life residues and missions. And she made Mary realize that her instinctive wisdom had nothing to do with the mission of being a mother. It was really a past life residue.

She made Mary regress into several lives, which showed Mary being a most wonderful mother there could be and then she took Mary on a meditation with the angels. Mary’s personal angel told her that her mission was to teach other mothers, not to be one herself. In her vision, Mary was shown books, none of which Mary could recognize but all of which had Mary’s name at the bottom.

She realized then, that her mission was not to be a mother but to teach mothering to those like me, to whom it doesn’t come instinctively. And Mary began, with full joy to write books. And because she had no family and no familial responsibilities, Mary was able to devote all her time to sharing the wisdom that she had accumulated over incarnations.

And when Mary died, the world was left a richer place because she had written a number of books on children; how they think, how they act, and how we can be better mothers, how we sometimes create problems for our own children. The world would never have known all of this had it not been for Mary’s books.

We are going to stop here and now move onto another man. We will see how it fits in later. And this man is called John the Abundant

We all know a ‘John’ in our lives and I guess at some point or the other we have envied the ‘Johns’ in our lives. They make money so easily!! They don’t seem to need to work hard over it. And we say "Wow, this person must be having the most amazing karma because he is just completely surrounded by an abundance of wealth."

And ever since John was a little boy, he used to make money. Kids would exchange one toy for the other, and one chocolate for another sweet but John would take money. So if you asked John to do something, to write a little bit of homework for you, John would say "But it will cost you so many pennies." And he was very reasonable in his demands for pennies. It never went above the pocket money that the child had received and John very intuitively knew what the child could afford.

And so by the time he left high school John amassed quite bit of money for himself. He did this all through college, and college of course gave him greater opportunity to get more jobs. By the time John was 30, he had amassed a huge fortune. By the time John was 40, he had far more money than he would have ever been able to use in his life even if not a single other penny was earned.

But after 40 John became a very lonely, angry man. He seemed to have all the money and yet he was working non-stop getting more and more money. But he didn’t have the time to spend it. He didn’t have the people to spend it with.

John died at the age of 64, extremely wealthy, but very angry and very embittered. No one would have ever thought that John would feel that life had cheated him because everyone would see John as this amazingly rich man who had everyone at his beck and call.

When John died and when he went into the Cave of Creation, to view his Akashic Records, John realized that he hadn’t even started on his mission. He had lived his life only out of past life residue. In the past he had learnt about money and business and how to be an extremely good businessman. And he had lived his whole life from his past life residue. And he realized then on studying his Akashic Records, that so many times the universe had knocked at the door and given him so many windows of opportunity to see his mission but John had been too busy making more money because that was what he did in his past.

The pull of the past had been too great for John to overcome. His mission in this life was in fact not to search for wealth, but to search for enlightenment. And John was told a very great truth, that several, in fact a large majority of those who come into this world with such ease of making money, come with a huge karmic burden, and they use money as the means to distract them from their mission. Money really has nothing to do with ‘abundance’ in their case. John in fact was working completely out of lack. Lack of enlightenment.

And at the end of this story, Kryon gives us a very important truth. The scriptures tell us, it is well nigh impossible for a rich man to see the gates of heaven. This does not mean that one has to be poor to reach heaven, because that’s how it has been taught to us by the priests. A rich man cannot see the gates of heaven. Why? Because he is blinded by the love of money. The whole lesson is to reach enlightenment through abundance, not through lack. It’s very easy to be poor and then reach enlightenment but very difficult not to give up your worldly desires, to wish to have money, to work towards that and yet to seek enlightenment. John knew that he had failed. And yet the welcome that he got when he went ‘home’ was so great, that John realized that there is nothing like failure. It only means that John will wait a little more before he starts on the mission again.

And we leave John there, and now move onto another part of the world to Philippe, the fisherman.

Philippe was the son of a very rich man. His father was one of the leading lawyers in the city, and they had a beautiful home near the sea. The French love the sea, and Philippe too loved the sea, but he was different from the other boys. Whereas the other boys would love to frolic in the water, Philippe wanted to fish. And he would not play with the other boys; he would sit amongst the old fishermen, and talk to them and learn about various knots and techniques, and the net and the bait and the fishermen were completely stunned because Philippe who came from a completely different background seemed to have an intuitive knowledge about fishing. They had to show him a knot just once and Philippe would do it perfectly. He never had to practice.

The father, though, was a little disturbed, because all Philippe’s free-time was spent in fishing, in meeting and gathering with these poor fishermen. And the father knew that this was not Philippe’s mission. So the father sold this home, moved inland where there was no body of water, and gently, the father pushed Philippe into law. And Philippe attended one of the best legal institutions, and flourished. And Philippe realized that he had a great love for law. He didn’t have an instinctive knowledge for law as he had for fishing, but he thrived in it, he loved it. When he was older he became one of the heads of the Supreme Court. And when the people were interviewed and asked about Philippe, one said, "Do you know, when we look at him, he doesn’t look like a judge. He looks like an ordinary……umm…lets see…. Fisherman!!"

When Philippe died and went to the cave of creation, he realized that he could very easily have become a fisherman due to a past life residue. It was the draw of past incarnations. But he had made a contract with his father that "If I wish to do that, you will take me away from that environment." Because Philippe knew, as any soul knows, that this is the obstacle I will face, and so he had made a contract with his father’s higher self to help him. His father lived up to his contract.

Philippe’s mission had been to institute a new legal system. A system based on fairness; and he had learnt that you can’t cheat the sea. The sea gives you something that you deserve. And every fisherman knows, and every fisherman will do this, from the catch they will always throw one fish back into the sea. They know, you have to give when you get. And Philippe had done that. Based a new legal system on fair exchange. That justice has to be fair. It isn’t only a book of law. It goes beyond the written rule. And Philippe’s wisdom, as a fisherman, helped him to complete this mission. But he understood that the draw is stronger with past life residue. The draw is not as strong to complete your soul mission.

Philippe also saw his Akashic records, and he realized when he studied his life, that he had been his greatest friend, because when his father had put him into a law school, Philippe had rebelled. If Philippe had allowed his ego to control him, he would not have given himself up the love of law. He would have stubbornly continued with rebellion, which he did not. And so though his father had aided him, his friend had been himself.

And we leave Philippe there and move on now to Elizabeth, The Royal.

When babies are born, they can’t hold their heads high. And every mother knows this. But this little girl was different. From the day she was born, she held her head high. And everyone who would look at her would say "She is born to be a queen."

As Elizabeth grew up, to a child of 2 -3, when she was asked, "So little Liz, what d you want to be when you are a little older?" Little Liz would say "I am a Queen." But there was only one problem. Elizabeth’s parents were very, very poor. They lived in a part of the city which was called the shanty town, and there was no way that Elizabeth would be queen.

As Elizabeth grew up, she began to put on a lot of airs and moved around with an attitude which ticked off a lot of people. The adults thought that she is too smart for her boots, and her friends didn’t want to be around her because she always looked down on them. And they all looked at her and said "Where do you think you are going to? You are just a poor girl, from a poor shanty town with poor parents." And every time she would hear this, she would be angry.

She knew in her heart, she was meant to be royal. How dare the universe put her in these miserable poor conditions? How dare!! Fortunately for her, when she was in her late teens, Elizabeth met a very wise woman. And she took Elizabeth through a study of blueprints and choices, and made Elizabeth realize through regression, that it was her past life residue of having been a queen many times over, that made Elizabeth sure that "I have to be a queen" But then she went one step beyond, and she showed Elizabeth, that it’s not being a queen that spells royalty. It’s being in a position where you can serve others, that’s true royalty.

Suddenly the world changed for Elizabeth, and she said "I am poor, but I have the courage and the power and my past experience of rising to the top. I can be where I wish to be; to be queen of that which I want to be queen of. A queen doesn’t always rule a country."

When Elizabeth died, as an old woman, she died royal. She had helped others. She had gained position in her society, truly as a queen, one who looks after her subjects.

Four different people pulled by past life residues. One of them, John, did not heed the call of the universe. The other three all heeded the call of the universe. The universe gave them the opportunity and they listened. John did not.

How many of us, in our lives, have asked "What is my soul mission?" Am I a teacher because that’s my soul mission? Do I love teaching because of past life residue? I don’t know. I wonder how many of us do. Kryon was then asked, how do I know that what is drawing me is not my mission but a past life residue that my mission lies in another area altogether, which I am completely ignorant of.

Kryon says, why don’t you go ahead. If it is past life residue, which is not your mission, then like John, you will be embittered, angry, discontent. If it is your mission, every morning, you will greet your day with a smile. With that clue, I know that teaching is my mission. If it hadn’t been, if it had been past life residue, I would be a teacher, yes, but I would hate every moment.

Philippe loved fishing and he would have been happy as a fisherman but as he grew up, Philippe would have felt an emptiness. His draw of a past life residue would not have been enough to carry him through.

Bit I said there were five people. I haven’t forgotten the last one. It is David, the loved.

David did not come into this world with any past life residue. He had already been completely enlightened. He only came with a mission. When David was born his young parents were very, very happy. But their joy lasted for only a few months because the doctors realized that a very vital part of David’s brain was missing. It just wasn’t there. And that part was the part of growth. And the doctor said "David, will not see his teens." And the parents were shattered. The doctors said "We don’t know how long the brain will aid him to grow but there is no way he can be a teenager. That we know. What we don’t know is how long he will be here." That was David’s mission. To gift himself.

Was this a gift? Because David died at the age of 12. And his parents, who had been prepared all of David’s young life for this, were still completely shattered. But within a year of David’s death, the parents found a ray of happiness in their lives again. Instead of sitting and thinking of David’s death, they thought of the wonderful times they had had with David. The whole family had become so close. The extended family too. They had gone to places they would never have visited because they wanted David to see it all and do it all and they didn’t know how long David would have. Whether it was Disney world or something else which was greater than Disney world, they took David everywhere. They did things together they would never have done. They realized that their lives had never been richer because of David’s 12 years.

David gifted his parents with their mission. Through the death of their son they understood what it is to lose a child. And then they understood what it is to lose a parent. And they spent the rest of their lives making the lives of other parents and other children as rich as the 12 years had been for them. They started an organization much like, "make a Wish Foundation." That was David’s gift. To come with a mission, so that his parents would move towards their personal mission. And that’s why he was called "David, the loved."

Each one of us is still not David the loved. We have all come with some karmic residue. It is for us to understand where the karmic residue is pulling us, and it’s not only in our mission and in our work. The karmic residue pulls us very often, to relationships. Relationships that are sometimes wonderful, so fulfilling.

If any of you have even met, even briefly a person, with whom you have shared so much love you know what I am talking about. But unfortunately those relationships are sometimes just one and sometimes never. But if you had one and then lost it, don’t hold on in regret to the loss, but like David’s parents, allow the richness of those few months or those few years, to make you help others. Experience that kind of love and then help yourself, in those areas where the past life residue of that strong love does not exist. The truth is that many, many of our relationships come from past life residues of baggage of energy entanglements and knots that we have to painstakingly, patiently, unravel. And we can’t get away from it. You can run as much as you want but there is no place to hide. You have to unravel those energy entanglements.

But the universe gives us the strength. We all have to find that one area of strength. Unfortunately, for most that one short span of love does not stay forever. If it did, you wouldn’t be working out anything. It comes into your life for a brief period, for a specific purpose, to give you strength, and then it goes. And you have to let it go. You can’t be embittered about losing something or someone. Let it go. But you can’t let go of the joy and the strength that it gave you. And then using that memory, you have to stay within ‘not such happy relationships’ and work them out. And that’s the tough part.

Each one of us comes with past life residue. We cannot escape it. And we cannot say "It’s past life residue so…..I have to hate Sheila all my life." Maybe I do hate Sheila because of past life residue but if she is back in my life as a wonderfully important relationship its because I chose her to be here, to work out a past life residue.

Another excuse we give ourselves is, "But she is not working out her end." But you are not Sheila. I chose Sheila for a purpose, but if she wishes not to fulfill her purpose is that going to stop me too? If another wants to be irresponsible, give them the freedom. But how do you do that when you are caught in a close relationship, where the other is not taking responsibility?

By saying, she/he does not exist for me now, as a husband, as a brother, as a son, as a mother, a sister. She/He is a soul I have residue with and I will clear it. Stop considering them in relationships. I found it works. You see the reason we get so scared to do that is, if I stop considering that he is my son, will he die? Will I lose him? Haven’t you lost him already? What is there to lose? In fact there is only promise of finding again.

So don’t consider him as a son, as a husband, as a mother, whatever. Let them go. She/He is only another soul with whom you have an energy knot. Only treat them as such. Have no expectation from them, because with expectation comes, disillusionment.

When I call Sohrab, "My dear friend." immediately, with the ‘dearest friend’ label comes expectation. He is my dearest friend, so I expect Sohrab to be there for me when I am down. I expect …..you understand? And when he doesn’t fulfill them, then there is disillusionment and consequence resentment and anger and what could be the worst, splitting of ways.

If I don’t put a label on him there are no expectations. (To someone in the group) You expect your husband to behave the way you want your husband to behave. (To another)You don’t expect your son to give you the love and respect that you think your son should give you. He is not your son, so why should you expect that from him. Allow them to be what they really are, just souls. Don’t you and I share our homes with souls who are disembodied? And do you have a problem with them? When you live in the same home with an embodied soul you are sharing space. You are sharing space. I am not sharing my life, I am sharing space. Space is cheap. How does it bother me?

You will go through a complete shift in the mental focus. There comes a detachment. Again you may say "But then there won’t be any love." I 100% agree with you. There won’t be any earthly love. You have to go through the process of not experiencing earthly love so that then you are empty of that and can experience LOVE, as it should be. Allow that phase to happen.

You don’t have to love your husbands and wives. You don’t have to love your mothers and fathers. You don’t have to love your children. The moment you give yourself that freedom, you give yourself the opportunity to empty yourself not only of the past residue but of earthly love which is filled with expectation. And therefore disillusionment. So empty yourself and when you look at them say "What a beautiful soul." Not "A wife I can’t stand." It’s a shift, a big one.

To help us in that we need a very special Archangel. Archangel Jophiel. He is the archangel of illumination. He, along with his female counterpart, Christine, (who knows Christ), helps you in this illumination…To make you see the person you are entangled with so unpleasantly as a soul, not as a human being and not as a relationship. You must allow a relationship to die. When there is no relationship, then there is unity. When there is a relationship, there is separation. I cannot have a relationship with Sohrab unless I consider Sohrab separate from me. What then are you wishing to save, when you focus so strongly on a relationship? You are focusing on furthering the distance between another part of you. You are furthering the distance of separation. What is the focus on? Is that an illumined focus? Allow the relationship to die. Share space, not your life. And it’s extremely tough because every time pops in ego. I am talking from experience and that’s why I am telling you. I have been conditioned to think of this person for so many years as ……. So my ego is completely conditioned by expectations. And though I have made a deliberate conscious choice it is very difficult.

At present the human being doesn’t exist for me, I know the soul does. The soul has to exist for me, I have to unravel. The soul has to exist. But every time, now and then, ego pops in with expectation and subsequent anger and every time I have felt that I ask how can I expect something from a person who doesn’t exist?

This is the toughest thing that you can do; leave behind past life residue. But we have to. And even more tough is when one has to leave behind past life residue with one whom we have had strong bonds of love with. So many people come and ask "But why can’t I spend my life with him/her? I know I am meant to be with him/her." I don’t know. I didn’t draw up your blueprint. I am only inviting you to ask yourself, why did you invite him and put him into your life in such a way that you could not be together? Find out your answer, I don’t know that.

And don’t do what so many people do and then regret. He is my soul mate, so they go into a relationship. And then the relationship sours. What is the universe telling you? Buddy, it’s not for you. You have a past life residue of great love but it’s not for you… move away. Let that person be in your life as a beautiful friend, a beautiful memory and draw strength from that. But the moment you take it where it’s not supposed to go, it sours. The universe is only guiding you where you are supposed to go.

It happens in all fields; work , relationships, everything. Confused, should I, should I not? Go ahead and do it. And be open; tell Jophiel and Christine "I don’t know if there is a draw for this kind of work, or there is a draw for this relationship due to past life residue or my mission. I don’t know that. I am confused. I need your illumination. Help me." They will help you. If it is meant for you, you will be fulfilled and if it is not it will begin to sour.

But sometimes, we are like a stubborn housewife. She puts the milk to boil and she sees from the first bubble that its sour. But she says, "No, no, no. Let me boil it a little more. Maybe I am seeing things." And she boils it a little more and the milk curdles a little more and she says "Am I really seeing a separation there? Maybe I am not." And then she just waits her time out till the milk is completely separated and then she sees says "Oh, the milk is bad." It took you 10 minutes to understand that!!!

But, we don’t want to let it go. "I paid Rs30 a litre for that milk." "I have invested so much of my life in this relationship or this work. How do I just let it go?" Don’t wait, let the milk completely sour. It’s your time. If you want to utilize your time in being absolutely ‘sure’ Jophiel and Christine will sour it more and more and more. It’s up to you. At some point, you will understand "maybe I should now turn off the gas and throw away the milk."

That’s great, Sheila! Make paneer out of it. What a wonderful and superb analogy. Use what has soured to nurture you and nourish you. Nothing, no experience is ever a waste.

Thank you.