Part 4----Tete-a-Tete With God 3.2.2003
PSW: Beloved God, my Friend, before I pen the discourse we had in Pune two days ago, and which You specifically asked me to reproduce and send to all my friends, I wish to thank You for coming to me when I was feeling very low and lonely and pained. Ofcourse after my talk with You I do not feel any of this, because You made me see and realise that what was given to me was for my growth and good.
GOD: My dear child, I know the pain and trauma you have gone through and so do your Masters, but the fire through which you have been made to pass has cleansed you, and you will now grow faster. My friend, the Spiritual path is not a bed of roses but a bed of thorns—the more pricks you are able to take the faster is your growth--, but remember My dear, that every wound that you suffer with every prick, is healed and nurtured by Me, you are never left alone. Now My child, you begin with the little conversation we had, without feeling either shame or guilt, because what you have experienced, is experienced by many of your Spiritual siblings, so let them also understand and draw comfort as you have done.
Discourse with my Friend, late evening on 2nd Feb. 2003. in Pune.
PSW: God, I come to You because I know You will understand the pain I am going through at being left alone and ignored by my Masters, inspite of my longing and yearning and love for Them.
GOD: MY child, the Masters love you just as much and more, and because They love and care that They are making you go through this. Now My friend, you will also find Me a little harsh because what I am going to tell you will not be very palatable. Have you My child, thought as to why you are feeling this pain and hurt at not being approached and addressed and talked to by your Masters ? It is because your physical ego is hurt and because you are not getting the validation you are seeking of Their love for you. Now I will give you two
examples to elaborate My point:
1). Take a mother with four children. The second one is constantly feeling unloved and neglected, because the little pained one is only looking at the exterior of the mother's behavior and not looking a little deeper to understand. If she would only remove her blinkers she would see that the eldest is a physical weakling, the third is an emotional wreck and prone to raging tantrums which requires constant tact and attention from the mother, and the third and the youngest is a mischievous little brat always getting himself and the mother into some problem or the other. The second is the only one who is balanced, quiet and well-behaved and hence requires the least attention. This little one feels pain because she does not have confidence in her mother's love and feels she is not worthy of her mother's attention as are her other siblings. What a totally distorted judgement--- is it not, My child? Simply because of a deeply hurt ego! You see the futility of it all! Now to give you a second example:
2)You, My child, are a lover of plants. Everyday You nurture your plants with your own hands. Have you not realized that unintentionally you have been giving more attention to some particular plants than the others? Why do you do this, child, not because you love the others less, but because these few plants require more of your care and attention as they are
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more delicate than the others and therefore require special handling. Now take your lessons from these examples and you will see how foolish you have been in bringing unnecessary pain and hurt upon yourself. Remember, My child, Our love for you all is the same, be he a hardened criminal or a noble one, because We do not go by the exterior, We look deep down, and what do We see there, nothing but the Divine Spark! So now you see My children, the fallacy of your judgement!
PSW: Yes, dear God, I do realise that I have judged wrongly. But, my Friend, we are still human so You could give a little free rope for our human frailty.
GOD: Yes, dear one, we do overlook and accept these little weaknesses, but often We have to come down with an iron hand when We see that growth is being hindered because of your obstinacy to ' let go' ! In this very instance did you not realise that the moment you ' let go' ---ofcourse out of sheer frustation---you got your heart's desire? Now My children, I want you all to learn from My little friend's frailty, and just as she has learnt her lesson---the hard way indeed---you must learn yours, because most of you are going through the same experience as she
PSW: Believe me God, after this discourse with You and after You brought me face to face with the actual truth, I felt so much better and lighter! I thank You for being my Friend always and putting me out of despair!
GOD: My beloved one, that is what I am here for, to fill you all with Love and Light till you all become pure' Light Beings', Now on this happy note we end our little tete-a-tete till we begin again, soon.