Jade Fire on Tuesday 16th April, 2001

I would like to continue on the subject of I which your Master[Meher Baba] just spoke about. How you are all possessed by the big I.Why do you think 'I' is always written as a capital letter and not a small i - i.e. with the tiny dot on top?The I is the connection to the DIVINE [ Master indicated with a gesture of his finger going in a downward line from the crown chakra through the centre of the body upto the feet].

When next you see someone's handwriting notice how that person writes his I. It will tell you a lot about that person's connection to his Divine self. If it is not very straight that would indicate misalignment with Divine Self - misalignment of the chakras.When you see the alphabet written as a small i it will show a complete separation from the divine.
Misalignment of the chakras means becoming ill. Each chakra governs the specific organs in the body. Why is 'ill' spelt that way? It is because there is no W in front. With the W preceding ill it becomes Will. Will of the Divine - when that is present there is no 'ill'. Let us see all the various illnesses that occur in the various parts of the
body.

If a person's feet are giving him problems, the area of toes or the ankles, them the problem in this area of the body is due to lack of self-confidence. The person's inability to standup on his own. His fear of being ridiculed. It shows a complete dependency on another.

When a person has problems in the knees and calves the dependency is less but still the person hesitates a lot before taking independent decisions. There is the constant fear of being wrong. This fear gets stored in the knees and turns into physical manifestations of toxins. Coming up to the thighs and hips.. When there are problems in this area it indicates the person's inability to perform any action. He knows what to do, he may even instruct others to do the job but cannot do it himself. Here is his fear of failure and that is why he refuses to act - do things for himself. The fear of failure is so debilitating that the person refuses to move.

Let us come to the abdominal and stomach problems. This includes all the internal organs including the uterus, kidneys, liver, pancreas, gall bladder, stomach and intestines. When there is a sickness or problem in any of these areas, it indicates collection or suppression of great anger. You have great fear in even acknowledging that anger exists within you - so you suppress this and it causes disease in the abdomen. Obesity is also the expression of this same suppressed anger. When the body cannot eject it. It expands and collects all the suppressed anger. Being very thin is also the same phenomenon. The body, in this case, is eaten up by the suppressed anger and loss of flesh occurs. When ejection of the pent up toxins does not occur correctly the organs responsible for ejection are given instructions by the physical mind to shut down completely….that is the reason for kidney failure. When you suffer from gall stones and other physical manifestations like this they show a literal hardening of the collected poisons within you. At a conscious level you may not have the courage to eject these emotional poisons so the higher soul instructs your physical body to physically manifest them so that now you have a non-threatening excuse to throw them out of your body.

Coming to the area of the chest and lungs. You have diseases from common cold to pneumonia to asthma. Here there is fear of breathing itself. You are afraid to live. Because if you know that you are living you would have to acknowledge your existence. But you want others to acknowledge your existence ( because you been made to feel so unimportant and insignificant that you now believe that unless others acknowledge you, you cannot exist) and the fear that they would not, stops you from breathing - hence you suffer from chest related sickness. There is a tremendous lack of emotional contact and support……when it is not extremely severe it will result in common colds, when it is periodic it results in pneumonia and other such ‘short lived’ illnesses, when it is present from birth or pre-birth and continues through one’s life it results in asthma. When some children outgrow the asthma as they grow older, it is because the pre-natal lack of support has either been positively dealt with by the parents who showed genuine support after birth, or the child has learnt to deal with this lack and compensated for it in some other manner. Look for a compensation like eating, smoking or drinking, or another similar kind, in a ‘cured’ asthmatic.

Coming to the throat area - the problems occur here again due to anger. But here you have acknowledged the anger to yourself but not expressed verbally the anger you know you are feeling. You fear that if you express your anger to a friend you may lose the friend so you refrain from expressing your anger verbally and then the throat area gives you a problem. The emotional problem here is very often a deep, deep need to belong to others because it is very difficult and sometimes well nigh impossible to belong to yourself. You need external validation for your survival and your fear to express your true feelings arises from this. When this chokes you or eats away at the lining of the throat you get severe coughs or other related problems.

Let us come to what many in your world suffer from headaches or what you call migraines. This is due to stress collected around the third eye. Stress and an open third eye cannot co-exist. Stress forms a constricting band around the head area and closes the third eye and then you suffer from headaches! A constantly running nose is the physical body being given the instructions to release the stress in another non threatening manner.

Similarly problems in the ears - say deafness - this occurs when a person's body refuses to hear. This could be due to past hurt and verbal abuse and criticism directed at the person. So now the body resorts to deafness so that the person does not have to listen to such unpleasantness .

Blindness or problems with the eyesight also relate to one’s ability to see and perceive the reality. When the person has a problem with confusing reality of the past and lives in a past of one’s own interpretation of the reality the person will suffer from short-sightedness. This is also true for those who do not have the ability or are scared to look into the future. Those who just cannot put their finger on their ‘today’ reality which may be a confusing and unpredictable one, the person will have long sight.

Blindness and eye problems are also caused when the environment refuses to heed the person’s perception and viewpoint, and the person prefers not to see at all than to be made to feel unimportant and unheeded.

The mouth problems and loss of teeth indicates that you fear to chew on you fear and would rather swallow it!

Problems with your back indicate that you fear lack of strength. Always are looking for a staff to walk with. You fear to carry your load! There is lack of support, either emotional or practical, that is felt and the feeling is ‘I cannot lift this burden alone’.

Finally, we come to vomiting. Vomiting is the expression of a person who is so angry with himself, so full of self-hate and fear, inadequacies and low self-esteem that the body cannot contain these toxins any longer and hence it needs to retch!

{Sohrab} - Sir, may I ask in this connection what is the role then of
genetics.

Sir: Yes my son. Genetics has to do with the choice of family. Your
Higher Self knows and has made the choice say - to be born in a family which has genetic cancer. CANCER - you do realise now that cancer means that which eats away the body. It is only anger or fear [negative emotions] that cause cancer. You have then chosen to come into a family with this genetic disease in order to learn. You may either learn by not allowing negative emotions to remain within the body causing cancer or you may have to have the cancer to learn the lesson. The family has the same problem of stored anger, which you can learn from. So genetics provides you with the environment you need to learn from.

When you suffer from ulcers and blisters, it is the emotional stress of the moment that is literally eating you up from within. Acidity is the first step to this. The emotional turmoil causes the bile to be released which eats up at the linings of your body.

When you have a problem with your arms and shoulders it is because you have closed yourself off from yourself. As a result of this you shut yourself from others and refuse to put your arms around others and yourself.