I am linked to a very tremendous force which lends me no name. I am being given a choice to either connect more wholly to this force (it is not the usual gentle loving being that we know) or I may link and convey this message.

The choice is not for ‘Divyaa’ to make, because I am being guided to first link and speak, and then connect more wholly to this force. This chain in sequence is for my training because I am being guided that I am too stuck on the way things should be… Point 1, point 2, point 3... So I must today first link and speak and then connect wholly. What I am getting, in some way links to this energy or force that is all around me and links to me. It links to the class we just had.

I will start with the beginning or what you call the beginning. Most of you refer to the beginning as source. But of course there has to be something prior to the source; from where your source comes. In your duality, the only way you can refer to this is by calling it “a void,” because what is ‘not all that is’, you label as ‘void’. Of course there are no words, none whatsoever, in your linear language to describe this state. It may be best described, as the “is-ness” of ‘all that is’. It is prior to “I am that I am.” It is prior to “Sat Chit Ananda” which is the experience of “I am that I am.” Yes, you may touch it in states of meditation, but that is a contradiction in itself, because when you touch it, there is no you; there is no experience, there is no knowledge of it, but it will remain encoded in your cells and your energy signatures for you to draw on thereafter.

In linear terms, then comes source, the reflection of this void. It can best be described as love but not the gentle benign force you know love to be. That is a diluted aspect of force- LOVE. It is love with a capital “L” for you. It is pure pulsating vitality to be, to be itself in every which way possible. To be all that is, eternally, infinitely, wholly. Yes, if you really ponder on this, the diluted emotion you call love, seeks nothing but this. It is the highest potential and desire you have in every relationship; it maybe all that it is…Eternally, wholly, holding nothing back.

The source is viewed by you as two aspects. But we would like to clarify that there are no two aspects, because aspects makes you think of two portions, two partitions, separations. So you must now learn to call it two angles to view your focus. All names, all labels, all forms, are just your focus of the whole. In that manner source can be viewed by you in two angles. This is important to understand, because both are always One. That is the union of love. These two aspects, are usually referred to you as God-Goddess, male-female, Yang-Yin, Gold-Silver, Ray1-Ray2. But they are only different focuses; they can never be separate. It is like a drop of water, wet and clear; you can never separate the two. You must grasp this deep within you, because your language will always separate the two. You cannot speak in any other terms. So you must understand it so deeply that no matter how often it is referred to as two aspects, you know always it is ONE.

The male, God, Yang aspect is pure vivifying force. What is pure? It is only less dense. In your language of duality the opposite of pure is impure. But that is not correct. Pure, dense. You must understand that. When purity chooses to be dense, where is the impurity? And in whom? Yes, yes, and yes, when you are ready to go back on the journey home, dense chooses to become less dense. It has enjoyed being all that it had. Most of you who are on that journey home and therefore judge and label these terms as impure and pure. It is not so. The journey into density was as wonderful, as pure, as the journey back.

Now these two aspects, angles, focus one which we have told you is pure vivifying force, the pure force of existence, it is what gives your life force existence. It is the source of life force. It is male, Yang, Ray 1. It is Shiva. And the other, the loving wisdom to creatively be all it is, the all potential, what you call Goddess, Ray2 ,Silver. You may call it Shakti. But understand that one cannot be without the other. How will Shakti, how will creation, how will potential, how will ‘all that is’ be without the force of existence to allow it to exist? And yet, how will the force of existence be if it has nothing to be existence to? That is the part you very often miss. What would this force do if there was no creation to give existence to? They are infinitely always one. And that is why it is a love force. That is why source is love. It is eternal union in Shiva and Shakti, Male and Female, always, always, all of you, everything in this room is a union of male and female. The bliss, yes, the Sat Chit Ananda, for which you have no words (and the reason we are speaking this is the cause that is what your relationships are all about). It is love, choosing to experience and know itself. That is all you need to keep in mind when you go through all your relationships and what you call all its challenges. It is why Zafar and Divyaa have been placed here. Divyaa will give you the Shiva, experiential, experience and Zafar will give you much knowledge, much wisdom, and together you will be a group of love, and in expanded states you will be source, who is creator. And therefore you will create expanded personal realities, expanded world realities, expanded universe.

I am now being asked to link and connect more wholly. I am being told that this is for my training because these energies are what I am experiencing in states of meditation, but I need to focus on them in a more conscious state. I will briefly emanate it for those who wish to enter into its embrace; but you must take your own responsibility because it is not a gentle, benign force that you are used to.

I have been asked to describe what I saw. The image I got was of a serpent, the eyes looking into mine. This energy was me, the serpent, and yet somehow placed on the head of the serpent. It was fire, it was red. And even as I speak, what I am being told is this serpent symbolizes the out breath coming back in, because the moment my breath leaves to create, it comes back in immediately, inherently. That is the serpent, that is Kundalini. There is no need to make efforts to raise it. It is already raised. All you need to do is shift your focus.

Thank you for having me with you. (To Sohrab) Do you recognize me?

That’s alright, don’t worry. You will soon.

Why did I say don’t worry to him? Is he going to worry? He doesn’t bother. What difference does it make to his mother or father, who I am? But I say “Don’t worry”. I put thoughts and words into his head. So he thinks, I shouldn’t worry… is there cause to worry? (Laughter) Thank you so much for having me with you today. I am in a state of very light link with your channel. My name is unimportant, as are words, but unfortunately I have to use them today with you.

Deprogramming self. I would like to talk to you about that. Deprogramming self. God works in mysterious ways the sneaky bastard! God works in mysterious ways the sneaky bastard! How many of you have said just now, or thought to yourself, “What a rude individual?” Raise your hands. (Some hands went up.) Very good. How many of you said “Blasphemy!?” Please raise your hands. (A few hands went up.) How many of you when I said these words instantaneously burst into a chuckle? Raise your hands. (Some hands went up.) Please shut your ears, you do not have to hear anything I have to say this session. (Laughter) Truly.

Deprogramming self and deconstructing self. And one of the key elements of deconstructing and deprogramming self has to do with words, in this third dimensional, 3D reality. Let’s take each one of these words, one by one. Let me offer you my outlook on them. Maybe yours will change. Maybe we will exchange something. Maybe you will blast me down.

Let’s first think of the words ‘mysterious’. God works in mysterious ways. That’s an easy word to start with. Most like that word. It’s ambiguous. It’s exciting, unless we are one of those logical, empirical fellows who require proof and theory and lab experiments. This word doesn’t harm many people. Or are we then one of those sorts of people who get extremely affected or non-affected, if I may put it that way, with the things I just said. “It doesn’t matter to me I believe in Allah, I believe in Mohammed, I believe in Vishnu, I believe in the Buddha, I believe in Satya Sai Baba, I believe in Meher Baba, I believe in the Sensex, I believe in Mastercard.” They are my Gods. How about if I said Mastercard works in mysterious ways the sneaky bastard! Not even one chuckle?

You do realize that the sensex for some people is God. They do pooja before they start work everyday in certain areas.

Then again the most polluted word, the three letter word – God. What is God? To me, there are three types of human beings on earth. The Monotheists- who believe that God should be called one word and one word only. Pantheists- who have lovely esoteric names for God, and the atheist who will not believe anything without empirical knowledge. About all these three categories I wish to say nothing for all three are false.

Calling anyone anything does not help. You call a dog and offer it food and call it Tommy, you call it Sohrab, you call it bastard, and it will still come and eat food and love you as much. Makes no difference to it. Why should it make a difference to energy, the life force that we consider God? Why should it? Then again by calling him a “sneaky bastard” to me it’s a term of endearment. Truly it is. It shows that I truly love Him. It shows, more than that, that I do not fear Him. For what God likes to be feared? Answer that. Only a monster. And by proving that I am not afraid of Him and that I can actually crack a joke about Him, and with Him, my bond is strengthened with Him.

Words. What is sneaky? The Oxford Dictionary defines sneaky as someone who chooses to do things in secret without knowledge to others. The cat thinks the mouse is sneaky. The mouse is only being careful. Self preservation. The cat thinks it’s sneaky. You see in a pure and loving environment, there would be no need for the word sneaky. Let’s take that out of our dictionary right now.

What is bastard?

A child born out of wedlock. We are all immaculately conceived. Believe that. It’s not up to our fathers. Our fathers could have come down from some space ship, been a grain of pollen from the sky fallen into the wombs of our mothers. It does not matter. We have created ourselves. We have manifested us. Our souls have chosen to come here, right here, right now. Immaculate – I am actual. Immaculately conceived. I have done it. Not anyone else. So if there is just one individual responsible for conception, is that not immaculate and we all know that we are Gods. Don’t we? Don’t we? Let’s take the word bastard out of our dictionary shall we?

I tell you a child born out of a session of coitus that is completely immoral in view of society and culture is one lucky bastard!(laughter) Unbounded by society and cultural – what’s the word – stereotyping. What a lucky bastard. And we should all consider ourselves lucky to be bastards.

Well, God’s own parents…. let’s imagine he has parents, Mr. and Mrs. Prime Creator. I am sure they didn’t go to a ‘mandir’ or church and exchange rings. I don’t think they did, so they were not married the way we understand marriage to be. Does that not make God a bastard? Lot of flutter of hearts here. Lot of fluttering… wonderful! (Laughter) That’s my job, and when it has effect its wonderful.

Deprogramming self. Words are just one aspect that we have touched upon today. For the true deprogramming it would take a long time to explain to you. Long time. We are programmed essentially by our parents. Two veins of programming coming in and they have been programmed by their parents and them their parents. Also our teachers, our institutions, our closest friends, our lovers, our children to some extent program us.

How many of us have spent their time thinking, “What the hell am I doing in this whole soul numbing, life dehydrating ritual of everyday life?” How many of us have thought that at sometime or the other? Raise your hands. That’s wonderful. Because we are then, all of us, living as, how should I say, passive consumers of reality. There is a shift already. The minute we think, “What am I doing here? Why is it like this? This is dehydrating my soul.” We know that something is not right. So let’s reconstruct ourselves as we want. Let’s deprogram all that programming. There are many ways one can do it. Many ways. Here for Rs50/- or if you go to Mr. Deepak Chopra for Rs.50,000. You could buy a Lamborghini Countach for $300,000 and say “Look , I have broken from norms. I am different. I am therefore deprogrammed.” Buy a suit for $2000/- That works for people.

Let’s try something very simple. A simple method. One of the many for there are many and I cannot sit here and explain them and give them all to you. Silence is a wonderful way of deprogramming. Some people do it for some hours everyday, some people do it for weeks, and some do it for 20 or 30 years. It’s quite wonderful. It removes all the crap of societal programming. It leaves you alone with self thoughts, self understanding, awareness. Nothing else. Try it. I highly recommend it.

Close your eyes please. Visualize yourself in these various different forms that I give to you. First, visualize yourself as an ascetic, an old man living in the mountains, with only a loin cloth and stick as possessions. Visualize yourself now as a sage, sitting blissfully in the lotus position. Visualize yourself now as an ant, walking across grassy fields with a humongous cockroach on its back, so that it can feed its young. Visualize yourself as an elephant in a river spraying itself with cooling, healing water. Now visualize yourself as an old woman with curly gray, white hair smiling, beaming, and laughing. Visualize yourself as a three month old baby in one of those nappy ads that we see. Visualize yourself now as a disc of light spinning extremely fast, radiating a color as yet unknown. Visualize yourself as a flea on the back of a dog seeking sustenance, seeking rejuvenation, seeking the energy of life. Now visualize yourself as a strain of a virus, infecting someone. Go into the blood stream, experience the infection spread. Propagate yourself. Visualize yourself now as a shoe, a simple shoe, being worn everyday, worn out by your wearer trudging along through muck, through pot-holes, through dirt. Visualize yourself as a watch ticking with precision, unfaltering. Visualize yourself as a seven armed, 16 legged, 5 eyed alien creature, salivating as it sucks out the blood from it companion. Visualize yourself as Lord Krishna. Visualize yourself as the chariot. Visualize yourself as the horse that pulled that chariot. Visualize yourself as the ground on which holy blood was spilt. Now visualize yourself as the best portrait of you yourself. The best photograph ever taken of you. See it in front of you. Now visualize yourself as a big bold question mark. Stop. Open your eyes.

How many of you were greatly pulled to the image of the question mark?

That’s good, because you are still searching. You are still discovering yourselves. Still trying to deconstruct. You have no clue where to go. You may have been on the path at sometime but now you are not on it. It’s a time of pause for you.

How many of you saw yourselves, or were attracted to the portrait of yourselves? Visualization of yourselves as you are today, here in the third dimension?

Ego. E-go. Don’t get too full of yourselves because there are millions of human beings who have visualized themselves. So. These are all representations of what we call God. These are all ways of deprogramming and we programme ourselves to whatever we like. Anything is possible.

(When Ellaeenah came out of channeling she explained “I need to share with you who ‘this’ was. This was also a part of my training. I remember every single word I spoke today, because I channeled ME. It started with my being in touch with the lowest energy of my higher selves, and then through the ‘channeling’, I accessed greater and greater and higher and higher energies of all my higher selves, till I finally reached that force of energy where I completely lost my higher self and I only felt large and ONE. This was a wonderful feeling, knowing that all these levels of ‘me’ exist separately, till finally they all merge into ALL THAT IS.”)

A footnote from Ellaeenah: I have placed this explanation here so that you know this before you read the ‘channelling’. This experience was one of the most beautiful that I have had. Before this experience I had imagined that there would actual distinctions between the higher selves, sort like one self and then the next and the third and so on. But as I moved into the energies I realized that the higher selves are nothing but the experience of expanded energies. I now realize that the term ‘higher self’ is a misnomer and actually leads to a false belief of elevation. Ascension is not going ‘up’ but expanding your energy field. And how can an energy field only expand in one direction? Before I began the ‘channelling’ I was asked by Jade Fire to “go with the flow” and not to resist anything. When I began, it felt initially exactly like ‘me’, my physical energies, and then proceeded on to what I can akin to a ‘light trance’. As it continued I felt the energies expanding and as I permitted the process to continue without putting up any ‘fight’, the expansions became faster and stronger, and soon I experienced what I can only compare to a ‘heavy trance’. At some point after that I lost the ‘identity’ of my physical self, and though completely cognizant of the physical environment, I was only aware of the expanded energies that are me.( I understand now that the great spiritual teachers must live like this at all time…..How wonderful!!! ) At almost the conclusion of the ‘channelling’ I experienced for a short period the unindividuated energies of the Rays and realized the true power, strength and force of my Monadic Ray 1. Till this experience I had conceived even the Rays to be individuated ‘strands of energies’ but now know that the Rays are the Source, beyond the Source and aspects of the Source in unified ‘existence’. Our Monadic rays and the presence of the other rays only make us experience a part of the whole more strongly than the experience of the other. That is why this is translated by the limitations of our cognizant mind as separate rays, aspects, energies, and so on. It is very difficult for me to define this experience in words because the full richness of this is deep within my cells and my soul, and my conscious mind has still not been able to make ‘sense’ of it.

When? When will it end? When will you and I stop playing games with ourselves? When will we stop the deception? When will we have the strength to acknowledge who we are? No, I don’t mean the glory of who we are. When will we have the courage to acknowledge that I live in ego, I think in ego, I feel in ego or I expect, I judge, I criticize, I am opinionated, I am mean, I am greedy, I lie, I cheat. It will end the day we become less self righteous. So what is wrong, I ask you? What is wrong in expectation, in judgment, opinion, in criticism? What is wrong? If you were not completely imbued in it, would you have chosen this human existence? Ask yourself. Why do I need to be self righteous? Why do I need others to think good of me, why is it important for me to please all else? How little do you love yourself? It is in this lack of love that you become self righteous. It is because you love yourself so little and consider yourself so small that you wish to show the world how large you are. It is through this, that you are constantly validating, justifying, yourself, never stopping, because if you were to stop, there would be self condemnation. And you wish so desperately and so fervently to run away from this self condemnation. You search, you seek, you run to every meeting, every medium, every book, every friend who will tell you, you are great. And you have sat here meeting after meeting, month after month and year after year listening to the truths and still playing the game.

You don’t come here to learn that you are God. You come here to reaffirm how small you are; that is why you come here. So that you can look upon this podium, and share the words of those you consider masters and tell yourself “I can never be this.” And that is why you come here.

If you didn’t, if you truly didn’t come here for that reason, you would not play this game so strongly week after week, ensuring that all those who come with you know how evolved you are. You come here out of ego and you have never acknowledged that. Do not step into this room again till you are able to stand outside that door and acknowledge in all honesty “I come out of ego” or acknowledge in equal honesty, “I come in spirit.” Either of these honest acknowledgements is to be made to your self before you enter these hallowed walls.

But you cannot make it to yourself. You sit here in fear; you sit here in dread, “what if I don’t evolve? What if another leaves me behind in this race to evolution which I must win? What if it is true that I am really as bad as I know I am? What if it is true that all others around me are far better informed, far kinder, far more honest than I?” And in that race of self righteousness you have stopped enjoying you. And that is why you so desperately seek your friends, your parties, your games. And yes, your relationships. You have sucked the fun out of being you. You are a question mark. Because who are you really? Do you have the courage to stand in front of a hundred people and tell them of all your faults, your pettiness, your manipulations, your schemes? Can you come here week after week and share with all the wrongs that you have done in that one week? No. But you are so ready to spout in loud terms your so called spiritual experiences. We forbid that henceforth. We forbid that. You can talk as loudly as you wish of your spiritual experiences if immediately after that you follow it up by an acknowledgement of what you have done which you are not proud of. If you do not have the courage to speak of that, you do not have the right to speak of anything else. We do not mean to chide or reprimand but often harsh words are the only way to make you sit up and take stock of what you are doing. And so often we notice you slide back into complacency and self righteousness. The more you grow the more self righteous you become, and then you play the games of “This area being mine and this space being mine.” What space is yours?

The only space you have a right to call your own is the one you consciously create. And what space till now have you consciously created even for a short moment in your time? You have lived in the space others have created for you. How then do you call that yours? The next time you keep someone out of that space, you will first create it. And when you have created your space, in that experience, in that creation of space, you will welcome all. You say “This is my time. My space.” Who is my? Till as long as you cannot define my, you have no permission from the universe to use that word. There is no my husband, my friend, my parent, my book, my house, my car. How can they all exist when there is no definition of my?

And these are the games you play everyday, moment to moment. And just as you live in your world of duality, this duality exists within you. As your spirit essence expands, so does ego. And it must. Ego must expand, larger than life itself so that you can see it, understand it, acknowledge it, and then, if you wish to, transmute it. Ego must expand proportionately to spirit essence. Then where the shame and where the guilt and where the blame on self and another? And the game you most find difficult to admit to is your game of manipulated thought and action. You are sometimes so pathetic that you cannot even acknowledge what you think and feel. Even to self. Even in that there is no courage; and how ironic that you wish to save this world. It takes courage to save the world. It takes courage to acknowledge that something is not right, in your perspective yes, but is not right. And then it takes courage to take the power of Ray 4 and use it to cause as much conflict to your ego as you can, in the full conviction and knowledge that out of that conflict comes the harmony that you seek. How often have you run away and escaped from the conflict within yourself? And then what harmony do you seek? You will get none. Let harmony be a word that is erased out of your dictionary. You do not have the courage to grasp it by its neck. Harmony requires conflict. Do you have the courage to take up that challenge? And if you don’t, you must be satisfied with a life of disharmony.

You seek help and you go to healers. Help requires courage. Change requires courage. And growth requires courage. It requires courage to be honest with yourself about how small you are when you know you can be larger. It requires courage at every moment of condemnation of other, to understand and acknowledge that you condemn yourself. And then you wish to educate others. Do you know what is education? Do you even know its purest definition? Education is becoming so small that you can fit into the shoes of one who is ignorant, and then in those shoes becoming so large that the small shoes expand enough to fit you. Do you really think you are ready to educate? Are you ready to become as small as the person who is ignorant?

You have a long way to go. And yet how wonderfully your spirit grows. But you never reap the benefit of the growth of your spirit because you lack the tenacity to stand still and grow completely. And a complete growth means a complete growth of spirit and ego. When ego grows so large you have to see it and acknowledge it. For how else will you move away from this pet enemy of yours? Welcome it. When you resist the energy of anything or any being, your entire physical faces the trauma, it shakes with the effort of the resistance you put in. And it is not only true for channeling, my dear. It is true for all the resistance you put up everyday in your life, quite unaware that your entire physical world is shaking. Why do you resist any energy? But first why do you label it as “fit of resistance?” If you truly consider all energy to be ONE, unseparated, unindividuated, undifferentiated, how then do you choose to accept one and resist another? And you do this everyday by resisting the energy of your own ego.

Should we play upon words here, you have often called ego –Edging God out. Which God? The self righteous one who grows within? Certainly edge that god out, because the power of the ego that you can experience is incomparable. You can experience the power of the ego easier and more forcefully than you can experience the power of your spirit essence. And if you wish to grow, whatever that term means to you, then you need the power of your ego to grow, not the power of your spirit essence which you will only feel fleetingly and in odd moments. The power of the ego you feel constantly. Use it proudly. Do not denounce the greatest friend that you have, the most powerful tool given to you. Ah, I can hear that. You are thinking “This gives me the permission now to be vain, and boastful and arrogant.” Of course it does; go ahead and be that. Go ahead and let the ego manifest in that because you will see in that, THAT WHICH YOU ARE NOT. And there is no greater power than the vision to see THAT WHICH YOU ARE NOT. Go ahead and be vain, go ahead and be proud. And be all of this larger than life and be as obnoxious as you can, as mean, as manipulative, as scheming as you possibly can. Leave no holds barred. Because in that will be the strength that you can take to then be that which you are. So stop the complaining, the crying and the whining. Be joyous that you have a mirror as large as this so that you can see that which you are not. When have you given a moment of gratitude to your ego? Sit in silence for a minute and acknowledge your ego here and now and be grateful to your ego for giving you the strength to work with.

You resist people because you resist your ego. The more you have accepted your ego the more you are now comfortable with people. No one is your enemy. No one is your friend. They are only you. Accept you. Accept who you are. You will stop resisting the mirrors then. With as much joy and honour that you greet your growth and spirit essence, welcome the growth of your ego.