Greetings of the planet Mercury! I am the logos of Mercury. Till as long as Earth moves into her 5^th dimensional structure, Mercury has undertaken the task of facilitating communication. When Earth moves into its 5^th dimension, Mercury will change its task. Each planet works in service for others and though Mercury may be in service for communication for Earth, it is not so for others. And it is not only Mercury in service to Earth, Earth is also in service to Mercury, but that is a subject we will not enter into.

We will facilitate this discussion on the energies of Mercury for Communication by inviting you to ask questions pertaining to communications, relationships that arise out of communications, hindrances that are caused due to communications, and so on. We will now be open to your questions.

That is a wonderful aspect of communications that you have touched upon because often Earth beings consider communication as only the spoken word, and that is also restricted to the word that you have spoken. They do not understand communication as the receiving of the word and so this is an excellent subject to discuss.

Communication, in its very nature, is a two way process: one speaks and another hears and till the hearing is complete, the speaking remains incomplete too and no communication thus takes place. So what is the hindrance, the obstacle, to receiving; to what you have called listening? Listening is nothing else but the receiving of energy, and in that lies your answer. Earth beings are the densest form of creation in this planetary evolution. Being dense, their very structure forbids penetration, and yet, being dense their journey is towards ‘fineness’, and thus their very structure invites reception. And here lies the dichotomy, the paradox. If you, as an Earth being, are very strongly inclined towards your density, towards your material-ity, (and we do not refer to ‘materiality’ as you do, in terms of wealth or money), your greatest sense of perception of material-ity will be your very body. If you are an Earth being caught in your denseness, in your material-ity, then that focus upon that denseness will forbid reception of any kind of energy. Denseness, in order to survive in its existent form, must not be contaminated by energies that are ‘fine’; energies that are fine will instantly begin to break up denseness, almost de-materialize it, so your structure begins to forbid any reception of energy. But in doing so, you have to then create defense structures of energy, of your energy, which will keep away all energies of fineness. But the irony is that a dense energy can only create structures that will keep out, not only fineness, but all dense energies as well, and so you will stop listening, because to listen you must receive.

As you listen to us at present, you are leaving yourself completely open and vulnerable to our energies, and our energies have already entered your dense structure, but because by the very nature of your question, you have left open your dense structure to ‘invasion’, our energies can very easily facilitate yours and therefore, you listen attentively to every word spoken because you have, for a temporary moment in time, let fall your defense structure. Your question would not have arisen if the defense structure had not earlier fallen.

Let us look at why you asked that question and none others. Oh, there were questions in several minds and yet, none voiced them. Their defense structures to our energies had not fallen. The thought cannot be voiced into word when the defense structure is still up and alive. You were the quickest to drop the defense structure and, therefore, you voiced what you needed to ask. In that asking, you have left yourself open to finer energies penetrating your denseness, which reveals that in this moment of Now, your focus is not upon your denseness or material-ity; your focus is upon the ‘fineness’ of your being, which also co-exists. As you walk out of this room today, your structure will be far finer than it was when you entered, only by the process of you asking this question.

So the process of ‘receiving energy’ is the process of ‘listening’. Often you ask, but your defense structure is still up; now you may wonder that the Logos has just spoken that the question cannot be asked if the defense structure doesn’t fall. Questions cannot be put by denseness to finer energies without defense structures falling. Denseness can ask question to denseness, in the presence of an active defense structure, and this is the process of Communication that exists in your Earth world. All questions are asked from behind defense structures of energy and all answers are received from behind those defense structures. So words become merely sounds that hit upon your eardrums, never allowing energies to penetrate. There is no ‘listening’. Is that clear? It will not be if your defense structures are still up.

Oh, those are as loud, for Communication, as those that are spoken. The word need not have a sound which you can hear. The sound of the silent word is far stronger, far greater in its intensity. But very, very often, it too is behind the defense structure. Have you not wondered why you, very often, question silently in your mind, those you have called your ‘Masters’ for questions, and yet the answers do not come, and then come after several weeks or months; they come when your defense structure is down. For finer energies to penetrate dense structures, there must be complete elimination, however brief it might be, of the defense structure. If this instrument (Ellaeenah) were to sit here with her defense structure up, there would be no communication. She would receive no energy. Has that been answered? Has communication been complete?

Then you must question even more. But, you see, in order to question more, you have to lower the structure even more. That is why you do get an answer, which as this one (D….) said is not completely clear, doubts are not clarified. Doubts, to be clarified, need further questions to be asked; for further questions to be asked there has to be greater finer energy that comes in and is received; for greater finer energies to be received, there has to be the lowering of further and further defense structure. When the defense structure is not ready to be lowered, doubts will remain in your minds, unspoken, and then they will be spoken aloud to other dense structures, thus perpetuating the doubt.

This is an excellent perspective of communication which we can again take up; in fact, it is this one duality of Energy in your Earth realm that makes it extremely difficult, even for the Logos of Mercury, to often penetrate as Energy of Communication in your world. This duality of the male and the female, the feminine and the masculine, this conflict that is a constant existence in your world, creates defense structures that are impossible even for the highest finer energies to penetrate and yet, (and be cautious now when you are in this conflict) this conflict of male and female creates defense structures that facilitate energies of the lower astral realms to enjoy themselves in. So you have allowed yourself to communicate ‘voluntarily’ with those that your Higher Mind may think better of. And there is no judgment of communication being passed, just an observation. You are free to communicate with any that you desire. Now be conscious of your communication. Are you communicating from dense structure to dense structure, from dense structure to finer structure or from dense structure to another dense structure of another formation? The choice is yours; Earth does have freedom.

(To Sohrab, who wished to ask something.) We have not finished. His defense structure was up. (Laughter) Not a matter of humour; a matter of observation. And this happens very often. Communication is not complete; the defense structure comes up, reception of energy breaks; the receiver, the hearer, moves on to another thought, another question. (To Sohrab) Thank you for facilitating this experience to all.

So let us take this duality of male and female. There is an imperfection, there is an imbalance, there is an incompleteness, there is an inconsistency in your own beings of the female and the male, the masculine and the feminine. You have so many words; often communication becomes difficult because of the number of words Earth beings use for the same. You see, communication must depend upon the energy of the word. If you have one word for one thought or one idea or one feeling, then that energy would be facilitated only through one channel, which would become stronger and stronger in energy. In the presence of several words for the same idea the Mercurial Communication Energy has to be dispersed amongst so many words, each one signifying the same thought, word, notion, idea, feeling. Reduce your vocabulary, and definitely change it.

So when there is an imperfection within you, at times the male is stronger in its intensity and at others, the female. And yet, even when the female is stronger, it is not the Creative Female that is stronger. It is the lower female that is stronger. Of course, little one, there is a lower female and a higher female. It is the higher female that is creative. It is the lower female that is clingy, the weeper, what you have called being ‘sensitive’, and yet not sensitive at all. The truest form of feminine energy would never leave itself open to such utter giving up of power. There is no ‘sensitivity’ to energy at all; in fact, there is the greatest insensitivity when, that which you have called ‘female’, becomes clingy, weepy, piteous; that is the strongest, most difficult structure to penetrate. Have you ever been able to penetrate the defense structure of a weeping woman who wallows in self-pity? Have you ever been able to ensure that she receives your energy of strength? It is not possible. For her to lower her defense structure, she must get out of this lower female mode.

When you don’t listen to your inner ‘male’ or when your inner ‘male’ doesn’t listen to your inner ‘female’, neither will the external male and female listen to each other. And that was what we asked you to focus on: the relationships of communication. This is relationship of communication, but first it has to be the internal relationship. And just as you get lost in all duality, (and how lost you get!!) so also do you get lost in this reality that although there is the male and the female existing within you, they do co-exist in diversity and yet there is no division between them; they are only one with two diverse aspects. Just as you have a fork with 3 prongs, each prong seemingly looking separate and yet, the fork is only one. The female and the male are the 2 prongs of your fork. For you to attack life, you need both these prongs working in cohesion, with complete reliance, dependence, strength and support, one for the other, because they are one fork.

Now when this male and female conflict takes place, the defense structure that you put up is quite different from defense structures that some have put up right now, not wishing to receive our energies. (To Sohrab) And those will come out to you after this class and will tell you that they did not understand. (Laughter)

We will tell you when communication is completed, though you must learn now to experience the completion yourself.

This defense structure that arises due to conflict, due to male and female, is one that is impenetrable by both dense structures as well as fine; in fact, the only structure that can penetrate this defense structure is the structure of the lower astral. If you ever perceive one who is in the grip of the lower astral influence, do not focus upon the lower astral energies; you will only invite them into your structure. Just focus upon clearing the conflict of male and female that lies within that one, and you will instantly break the defense structure and thus release the lower astral. It cannot exist; lower astral beings cannot exist in your energy fields unless there is conflict between your inner male and female.

Take a moment to ponder over this: In the light of this truth, are any of you truly protected from this?

Thank you for this question. It was a pertinent one and truly facilitated communication.

(To Sohrab) Communication is now complete. (Laughter)

You are unable to receive our fullest energies. The Mercurial energies are ever changing. They are not constant, whereas your structure has completely constant, unchanging energies. And yet, you know your energies change. They only change in ‘vibration’; ours changes in form, vibration, structure and existence. What we are now, we were not when we first began to speak. The energies have changed completely. That is why you have the defined ‘mercurial’ as ‘ever changing’. And thus we must acknowledge these two (Sherni and Poonam) for giving a marvelous platform for this mercurial change.

Let us explain this process of how they’ve given us this platform. They have no defense structures left at present, so they have facilitated the highest, finest energies to enter their beings; they have invited them in, they have encouraged them in, and they have left themselves open to being changed; just as this one (Ell) is changed, so have your structures completely changed. Your dense structures have become far finer. (To Sherni and Poonam) By facilitating the platform you have, in fact, facilitated your fineness.

Earth is being helped by Communication through Mercury for a very, very long time; not in its 1^st and 2^nd dimensional stage, but in its very, very long 3^rd dimensional stage. As soon as Earth went into its 3^rd dimensional stage, it was essential for Mercury to take on Communication. Mercury’s energies were to be ever-present. All other planets do affect and serve Earth, but not in constant communication as Mercury; not even Venus whose service to Earth is the propagation and propulsion of the Love Energy; not even Venus is in that constant service as Mercury and yet, it was only Mercury’s energy that could have facilitated the service of Venus. The very long period of 3 dimensional energies of the Earth was necessary to facilitate a leap into the 4^th and then 5^th dimensions. For this, the change in the dimensional energies had to be very quick, very Mercurial. So communication! We had to ‘communicate’, give you our energy, which you had to receive; you have called it Communication. It was only a giving of energy, an energy required for the movement.

We will accept only one more question.

Both parent and child have very strong defense structures. Your parent today, is a very different parent than the parent of 50 years ago, or a 100 of your Earth years ago. The parent of today is an extremely imbalanced parent, in her or his own female/male energy conflict. The parent cannot support the child’s growth because the parent is putting up defense structures in order to facilitate and protect this imbalance that is within.

A child comes with no defense structures but when a child’s energy meets with a defense structure from those who become the child’s ‘Earth’, the child immediately goes into a state of shock; the Spirit recoils from the defense structure because, at birth, the child is the highest, finest energy. The defense structure has closed itself off to this energy. Now for Spirit to survive in such a hostile environment, Spirit must very, very quickly learn to make defense structures from denseness. This is a great period of shock. Spirit needs to be attuned, slowly and gradually, over a period of, at least, 24 months to get itself completely attuned to denseness. In your moment in Now, Spirit has to attune itself in less than 24 days. The child instantly goes into a state of complete shock. There is no period of attunement. If parents would learn of this very strongly, the defense structures between parent and child would not arise. These defense structures that arise within the first 30 to 45 days of the child’s embodiment into the Earth realm, remain constant till the child grows up, unless the parents break their defense structures first.

Mercury only understands the energy of Communication. Love energy, as you have considered it, is not our task in service; it is that of the planet Venus.

Only you should know that. Our energies are only to facilitate you in Communication, not to help you in either creating or removing defense structures; that is not our task. Defense structures and their removal are the task of the planet Mars.

Certainly.

A complete breakdown of the internal male and female. It must, it must, result in the break of a relationship that is outside of you, which is, in itself, a reflection of that which is inside of you and yet, this entire system of marriage that you have established is based upon Laws of Communication, which you have not understood. You have considered marriage to be based upon laws of communication of the legal world. Your legal world does not accept, acknowledge, recognize the inner male and female and that is why it does not accept, acknowledge and recognize that two women in bodily form, or two men, might wish to be ‘unioned’, married.

Drop the structure. Take a moment to consciously drop your structure. You’re creating the structure out of a conditioned mind that is guiding you into making yourself believe the communication from head to heart, that two women cannot be joined in marriage, as neither two men can. Good, instantly your defense structure has fallen.

Marriage is a union of energies. Marriage is needed when the dense structure of one perceives, in completion and wholeness, the imbalance within and thus chooses another, whose imbalance will then facilitate the balance of both. And that is marriage. That is the communication of marriage and yet, your marriage is not based on that communication, so it must, in fact, facilitate greater and greater imbalance between the two. Were the two not to divorce from the conflict, they would split apart. They would. Their energy structure would be rifted. So divorce is then the best option.

You (Jim) have a very loud question.

That will be the only communication. But before that the existence of the innumerable words will reduce. Round will be round; not spherical, not orb, round; not circular, round. A line will be a line; not straight, not crooked, not parallel, not diagonal, a line. You have too many modifications of the words that are, in any case, too numerous to mention. And then, not only do you have too many modifications of too numerous words, but you have too many languages, with their own words and with their own modifications. The Mercury Logos has a very difficult task because you insist upon only receiving dense energies of words; finer energies you are deaf to. For ‘thought’ to ‘thought’ there has to be the greatest simplicity.

The process of growth is a process where communication in its purest form is vital and this pure communication cannot be facilitated when there are strong defense structures caused by conditioning, by need, by greed, by desire, by control, by authority, by power. If you wish to listen, open yourself to energy. That is the only, only way to receive: to listen, to exchange.

I’m in a very light link and they ask not to further the connection so that I may learn to speak in current consciousness. I’m being shown, for my own training, how the energies are completely present, emanating, and doing their work, even while I speak in Divyaa consciousness. It need not be an either/or situation.

I’m being asked to speak on ‘Purposes to Be’. Because it’s a very large topic, it can be viewed from many points of view, from many levels but usually most of us, on the ‘spiritual’ journey…we only think of our ‘purpose to be’ in a large spiritual manner! That we must be having a single spiritual reason to exist.

We are aware that if we tell you, that in the larger picture, in the larger context your purpose to ‘Be’, is to be what you are moment to moment, you will shrug it aside. You will look in askance at us, and ask for a more practical response! Because your true question is "How am I useful? How do I contribute to the other, the world, to God?" Because ‘Being’, even if it is ‘Being an ever fulfilled, ever expanding, love, will creativity: Being God indeed, is not good enough!

Being is a state humanity finds difficult to embrace or understand other than intellectually. And that is fine. It is the paradox that your purpose to ‘be’, right now, is to reach that! That is why you will desire to ‘be’ something…. you will desire to ‘transcend’! It is only when you have fulfilled that, will that desire fall away! As it was explained in Patanjali’s class today: then, you will only BE.

That is why the Masters have asked all of us, time and again, to incorporate an activity of pure creativity in our lives. To inculcate creativity, is a physical manner (way) of ‘just being’! An activity you enjoy just doing for the joy, whether it reaches somewhere, takes you somewhere or not, it does not matter!

Especially for those who are of Ray 3, whether monadic or soul, you will often find that you are designers or interior decorators; you like to paint or do craft. You may not see it as a very vital spiritual purpose to ‘be’ but it is! You are practicing here, your monadic purpose! When you are creator, when you will create universes and nature and flowers and species! This creativity, which seems so mundane, now will have been its practice! That is why it is important to understand that purposes to be invade every area of your life.

They (purposes) can be viewed from many points of view, from many levels. That is why you will find Masters, at different points come here and explain the same point from what appear completely contradictory points of view. In the same meeting, sometimes we have different points of view! Different books, different teachers give you different angles and this confuses many of you! You find contradictions difficult to accept; you feel that validity of one negates the validity of the other. But all of you here are ready to understand that contradictions, so-called contradictions, do co-exist. Reality can accept all that is.

You have been given the example of the analogy of the elephant, time and again. If you’re standing at the tail or the trunk or the side, each aspect that you view is your truth. Very often, when we give you the larger picture, like we started with purpose to be: that your purpose to be is just being- is when we take you away from the elephant! The Shiva point of view! When you see the tail, the trunk, the sides, each truth is a truth but not the truth. When you are able to understand that truth, then what you call universal truth will become easier to understand.

It is very important for each one to understand what is your truth currently and also have an idea of the larger truth so that you know you are moving towards that.

I will give you an example, an analogy in very layman terms, other than elephants and tails, so that we understand, because each truth is your purpose to be; whatever truth you are feeling is what has to become the way you think, feel 24/7. It should not be an intellectual concept. Many times Masters come and tell us that sex will be transcended, some Masters come and tell us sex must be enjoyed, sometimes a Master tells us that desires will cease, sometimes they tell us that desires must be fulfilled. It all depends upon what your truth is, in the current point of view; that is your purpose to be. And then to fulfill and experience that! Through that will your ‘purpose’ expand towards the larger and larger. If we tell you that there should be forgiveness, it has to become a part of the way you think.

If you are driving by and you see a beautiful young girl being pulled off the road roughly by this big aggressive man, and we tell you- it is fine, there must be no judgment, there must be forgiveness- you may try, intellectually, but find it not truly possible! But then you get off your car, and walk to that scene and find out it is a film studio! Then you do not only forgive him! but find there is nothing to forgive!

You may then say, "What a waste of time. Why have I come here?" and the Masters may say, "Everything happens for a purpose." But you will keep looking at your watch and think of the important meeting you have missed till you go out and realize that your car had an accident and you missed it. And it then will this everything happens for a purpose be your truth!

We are giving you a day-to-day example, but this must be incorporated for all the universal truths that you come across, whether it is purpose, desire, karma, free will. We have spoke before and we are going to reiterate so that it is grooved into your minds: that we view the one reality, through these different universal truths. We give them different names: we call it karma, will, purpose, destiny but they are all different words for the same one larger reality. You can call a rose red, fragrant, pink, soft but they are all different points of view of seeing the same rose.

So when you are referring to your purpose to be, it is what you have planned for this life, what you call blueprint. It is the same. Your blueprint is what you have chosen from your true free will to do, your destiny. So purpose becomes destiny, purpose becomes blueprint. IIt is based on your karma; what you have chosen to learn, what you have chosen to expand. So your purpose to be is your karma and as we have spoken in our last meeting with you, your desires, are these purposes encoded in you so that you may desire to work towards your purpose! And then you come with those beliefs-which is your karma- which you have chosen to expand or remove, which is your purpose, and which you then desire! It is your destiny, chosen with your free will!

So it becomes the same thing, whether you’re viewing your desires, it is also your purposes to be.

Whenever you are confused at what is my purpose to be, try and view where are your desires, what are your fears because both will hint to you your purposes.

As all of you here are aware, purposes are many: from monadic, soul, personality…. you have your own purpose, you have a group purpose, you have an universal purpose, you have so many purposes (and I’m finding it easier to speak now in Divyaa consciousness). Each one must view where is your desire, where is your fear, and that will really help you understand what is your current purpose to be.

We have a very beautiful word in hindi or in Sanskrit, it is called ‘prarabd’ karma and ‘sanchit karma’. Prarabd is what you have chosen to work out or learn or expand in this life. That is your current purpose. Sanchit is your storehouse, which you may do in another life. Both will have a role in your life. As you fulfill your smaller purposes, will the larger purposes open and unfold. But many of us are only looking at our large spiritual missions and we neglect our day-to-day activities and if you do that, your larger purposes are only being delayed. Very often, you think your purpose to be is a contribution but, very often, your purpose to be is a learning and unless you fulfill this learning through what may seem very mundane relationships, career options, activities, your larger purposes in life will not open up because from the moment we individuate from, what we call, God, your purpose is always twofold: the learning, the removing of the I AM NOT and expanding and contributing of the I AM and that will play itself out in every activity of your life.

If you have had a life, which was focused on relationships, you might say, "What a waste of my first 40 years. It was only relationships." But if you view it in the larger context, if your mission was to spread love and wisdom, maybe you required to go through those relationships so you could expand your view on love. Does that mean that everybody who has ‘this purpose’ will have to go through relationships? Of course not! It will depend on your karma, your limitations, your learning. Somebody may come with the need of learning abundance; somebody may come with learning self-worth! You may have needed to go through relationships to expand your view on love and if you had shelved that, if you had sat because everybody in your family is into spirituality and God, "I will not enter these relationships", you will have only delayed your contribution, you would have had to come back in another life. So you must see where are your desires and try and learn what is the essence behind that.

Another way of understanding where is your purpose now, is to see where is your passion, where is your joy, where are you feeling enervated, what do you enjoy doing even if it doesn’t lead you anywhere? That is a beautiful clue to find your contribution. Let it be. It might just be an activity; you might just enjoy writing, you might enjoy painting. If you fulfill it, if you enjoy it, it will lead and open up to larger and larger purposes.

You may see, that purposes become part of your life in, what we will call, effortless ways. It does not mean effort is not required once it becomes part of your life! But these are the ‘coincidences’, these are the ‘patterns’ in your life; they keep coming back to you, or you just suddenly find yourself in it. We all know Ellaeenah story of how she just met Mehru and it just became a way of life, because this was her purpose to be and she was open to that. All of you will find certain incidences in your life, which just become a part of you. If you can focus on that, you will get a clue to what your purposes are. You must specially view your Patterns. If you find that everywhere you go, in every activity you do, you need to, lets say, travel; whether you are with your family, whether you separate, whether you go to a new business, it is always travel. "It seems such a mundane activity. How can my purpose be involved with travel?" but only you will get your answer. You cannot keep asking the Masters. We have a saying, ‘Ask yourself why? Why? Why? Till I reach the ‘I’’ and you will know why travel is your purpose. Maybe you feel that you are in control everywhere and nothing can work without you and when you travel, you see that every area of life works beautifully. Or maybe it is something completely different; maybe you’re very homebound, maybe in many lives you have not been able to move from where you physically are and travel actually teaches you that home is everywhere.

There are different answers for everything and neither can we, nor your Masters, give you every answer. We can only give you the knowledge, the wisdom and as much contemplation as you do, as much conscious living as you do, as much ‘Why? Why? Why?’ till you reach the ‘I’ do you do, do you become more and more aware of your purposes to be.

A nice way to invite your purpose, is to expand and see the essence of what you desire. If you desire to write and you know the essence is actually to reach out to people, then you open out other avenues. I’m speaking from a personal example; I enjoyed writing just for the sake of writing. When friends would ask me why don’t you do something with it, I just enjoyed doing it and I realize now that it is what opened me up to receiving the wisdom that I intuitively do. But I became aware that my purpose was not really to write, that the essence behind the writing was that I wanted to reach out the intuitive wisdom that came to me. Because I did not bind myself, channeling, co-leading, energy work, classes, all different ways of reaching out, have come my way.

All of you must know the essence of what you desire. So many people come and say, "We want our own independent house. We do not want to live with our mother-in-law." What is the essence? And each ones essence will be different. There is no one answer. Somebody wants control, then your purpose to be is empowerment; somebody wants to decorate the house the way they like, your purpose to be is self-expression. There are no answers we can give you, dearest; they are all within you if you start doing conscious living.

Another vital area to understand is it your passion? Is it your tapas? Do you really want it or is it just because everybody around you is doing it? Is it just an inclination? You will know. If it’s a burning, long, steady desire, whether it leads you somewhere or not, that is the clue to look for. If you want to do it because everybody around you is doing it, you will not have the passion, you will not have the tapas, the effort will not come and you will wonder, "Why Ellaeenah can do so much in a day?" "Why can Sohrab channel?" "Why can Divyaa speak?" Because it is a passion and we do whatever is required for it in joy and not as effort.

Very often, you are influenced by people around you; maybe from a business family and you feel my reason is to do business. You will try one activity after another, (and again I speak from personal example,) you feel useless. I cannot do business. I would do ceramics. I would do creativity and enjoy that but not its business aspect! I realize now it wasn’t one of my purposes to be. I was borrowing it to impress somebody else and therefore, there was no effort, no tapas, no results, no purpose to be. But there is a very fine point here. Are you fearful of doing business? If there is a reason, if there is a desire, if there is a passion (again a personal example) I have a passion to run a new age magazine but if the business is what is stopping me, then that is a fear, which again is a purpose, my dear. It is not only your desires; your fears are your purposes. If you can view them, acknowledge them and remove them from your life, then you will open up yourself to even larger purposes to be.

Look for the gift. Look for the essence of, what you call, selfish desires and you will find a beautiful purpose. If you want power, maybe you will realize the reason you desire power is so that you can maintain your power in balance. If you did not desire power, in the 1^st place, how would you have a situation where you would be in power to then practice it in balance? If you desire glory, you will feel, "Oh my God! I desire glory." But maybe the true purpose is humility because in true glory, you will see the glory of each and everyone around you and there will be complete humility. Try and become aware of what is behind your desires.

Many of you will wonder, "Where is the time for this passion? We have 9 to 5 jobs, we are parents." and we say: be imaginative. Allow, make place for your passions to be included in small practical ways. As you include them in your life, instead of excluding them, they will make their own ways.

What a beautiful life you have chosen! That our purpose to be is we have encoded as our passion and desire. So for all of you who look for a spiritual reason to do things, here is a spiritual reason to go find your passion!!!! And yes, there is a difference between passion and obsession. Passion and addiction (do not confuse the two!) Passion will make you feel expanded, elevated, empowered. Depression, depletion, disempowerment will be part of obsession and addiction. And that is also fine! Everything in my universe is to come back to me. If you’re aware of an addiction or an obsession, become aware of what is behind it and once you do away with it, you will rise in passion. Enjoy your purposes to be.

I’m going to talk to you, very briefly, about what happened through Ellaeenah and why (I know I certainly reacted extremely violently to those energies.) Did anybody in the room have any discomfort while she was channeling?

I did. I was sweating.

You were sweating. Yes, my palms were soaking wet and I was vibrating inside; I kept falling backward and I had to keep expanding myself to try to stay balanced. I think that happened because I was directly next to her. What happens when you are faced with an energy like this? I’m trying to put it in my words because I have to speak.

I’m going to give you a very simple energy structure and this is not the correct structure; I’m only using it as a description so that you can understand what I’m saying. Let us assume that we, each individual, has an energy structure in terms of colour so let us say that today D is feeling predominantly purple and her structure for today has a predominance of purple. For today, she will be attracted, unconsciously, to other people who have tones that are alike: purple, lavender, perhaps a pink but she will not find herself, today, attracted to people who are in the red and yellow ranges. Please understand I’m using colour only as an example; this is not your correct energy structure.

When Ellaeenah held an energy like this Mercury Logos, the colours are not only overwhelming in quantity but they are also overwhelming in strength; not only that but they are constantly changing. It is like having, for example, a mother who is simultaneously angry and loving, simultaneously insane and yet, extremely intelligent, simultaneously upset with you and caressing you. You don’t know how to deal with it because there is so much conflict and you are functioning on a more limited level of balance.

The Logos showed us every aspect of his vibration because he cannot be anything less and showed us, not only every aspect of it, but every colour, every shade, every nuance and all of it was changing instantly and constantly. And so my energy structure (and I will speak for myself), my energy structure was taken aback because I didn’t know how to respond and I would intuitively adjust, but the moment I adjusted, it had moved, so where am I to go? I’m falling off a cliff and I can’t stop myself. That is what was happening to me and that is what happened to Ellaeenah’s own body; when she came back into her own structure, which was more balanced than the logos’ structure (and when I say balanced it’s not in imbalanced terms but in terms of vibrancy of structure).

This is a beautiful example for all of us to learn from in our daily lives. Because I was not able to keep up, I had to put up walls to defend myself and therefore, I stopped taking in a lot of the information. That’s really what happened and that’s why I asked that question in between, because I could feel myself getting defensive and I could feel myself blocking what I knew I wanted to hear but I couldn’t hear it. I didn’t hear most of what she said because I was too busy protecting myself. What I am intuiting now is that we need to be very aware of this because we are all collectively getting energy sensitive; we are now getting consciously aware of our own structures and of the structures of the people around us so we are now going to get more and more dislikes and likes to people instantly. We are going to find ourselves attracted and repelled by people instantly, much more than we did before. We’re going to find ourselves comfortable and uncomfortable in rooms and spaces. It’s all going to intensify and you don’t have the luxury of running away. You don’t have it. You have to learn to adjust.

It can only increase, because as your sensitivity increases, you’re going to feel it. As your sensitivity to, say, heat increases, the moment you step out into the sun, you’ll feel it more than you did when you weren’t that sensitive. It’s just natural. So it’s not to be scared of; it’s to acknowledge this and to constantly accept this. I asked N for help, half way through and I realized what I did at that moment was stabilize and I intuited for myself, what I needed to do was to change at the same pace the logos was changing; not to emulate the energies, which I couldn’t have possibly done, but to keep my energies changing at that same rate and that’s when I was able to take it. I still wasn’t comfortable but I was able to sit here, without going like this.

I’m saying all this to you because now, the next time you go into a room, in someone’s house, and you find yourself repulsed by being there or you find yourself faced by a person you really do not want to be around, of course, if you have the luxury of moving away, do so, but if you do not, acknowledge what is happening to your energy structure, view the other person’s structure and make whatever adjustments you need to, not align to the other person but to vibrate at that same level so that you are not so affected. I know this is very confusing. This doesn’t mean that if the person is quote, unquote nasty, you become nasty too. No! Not at all! It just means that, for instance, you come across a person who is very disturbed mentally; this is a very common thing we face, particularly as Light Workers; I’m not in any way encouraging you to be disturbed but I’m saying, acknowledge that the vibration pattern that they are giving off is this very vibrant, very discordant, view it in any way you want. Feel it, sense it and think it and simultaneously allow your own vibrations to increase to that level or decrease, as the case may be, without sacrificing your own structure. Instantly, you will feel better; and it doesn’t mean you’re intertwining energies. Not at all! It only means you are allowing yourself the process of adjusting, so that you do not get overwhelmed.

Does anyone have any questions on this? I know it’s very confusing. You’ll have to let it sit for a bit.

Look at what a wonderful thing it’s taught me. Today I feel blessed that I learnt this. I didn’t know this before so I guess, and that’s my learning curve. If they didn’t have that experience, it wouldn’t be necessary for them to learn; but if anybody, in this room, found defenses going up, like mine were, they need to question why.

It may not be, Ell. Maybe, for me it was natural because I was physically so close to you; someone sitting there may not have felt that and yet, found themselves cut off from this; then they need to question, for their growth reasons, why am I resisting what she is saying? And it may be just the content or it may be one aspect, it may be anything. That’s their learning process.

Now this is a perfect example: you and Sherni, both, felt very comfortable with this energy. They were put here today. Also possibly your structure, over many incarnations, is in aspects aligned to this energy and mine is not. It could be as simple as that.

It could be to set out the grid, which had to be formed for you to hold this. Ell, for us, as actual channels holding this, our purposes are slightly different. We don’t have the luxury of saying I like or don’t like. We have committed to the universe to hold all kinds of energies that are acceptable, not only to our Masters but to ourselves and that is why they will never put into us, or permit us, to hold an energy we do not actually want for our higher soul. That will not be permitted. We will not permit it.

Just hear the question he asked and how beautifully he has put my defenses up. He said, "I’m going to ask a question. If you can answer it", up comes the wall. Oh God! I’m not channeling; I can’t answer this question. Just see! Beautiful! Thank you, M. Did you hear that? Instantly my wall went up. Oh God! I will not be able to answer it. OK? See how I’m testing myself and M was just the catalyst here. Now Ma, I haven’t heard the rest of the question so ask it again.

In your case, I would say, if you’re tuning out and in to any channeling, not necessarily one of this level, obviously it can be from personal fatigue, assuming you’ve not slept for 3 nights you will do that, but let’s assume that’s not the case and lets assume that you are finding yourself tuning in and out, generally it is you tune out for 2 reasons, I’m being told: one is that you need to separate from the information to process on a higher level. Actually mum does that a lot, if you notice. She’s not falling asleep. She actually tunes out because her energies are such, she does a lot of work on a higher level and she works, not only receiving but giving to the whole group. She does a huge amount, in every channeling, for the entire group. She binds us. She is the group love battery; we’ve been told this before. She actually goes up and binds people together while the thing is going on. The other aspect that could be, you tune out because you absolutely do not want to hear that because it has triggered something in you that you are not willing to look at yet. It may be conscious. It may be unconscious. But for the most part, it’s an aspect of you that you don’t want to face.

Now I understand, while I was studying theater, many years ago, and one of the things I was taught in drama school was that every actor, when studying a script, has one line or one paragraph where they have trouble constantly. You memorized the entire script but you just can’t get that one line in your head and you come to it and you stumble. We were told by the teacher go back and look at that line completely differently because there is some aspect of the truth that you have not understood. The moment you understand it, in terms of yourself, you will never forget it again and I have found this, time and again. I tell you, it happens to me every time I study a script and I have to go back and look at the line and say, "I didn’t realize the character actually meant that; not what I’m portraying." The moment that clicks in, I remember the line. It’s the same for this; it’s an aspect we don’t want to look at, in ourselves.

Today, please be aware that these energies were very hard, for almost all of us, to really take in so it may not have been your defense mechanism really; it may have been just your energies saying, "I can’t handle this." I know that was happening to me.

Sohrab: This is not the structure of the logos. This is the structure you had to create, in order to enable her (Ell) to hold those energies.

What generally happens for a medium, first of all, is a very, very concentrated high blast of energy is being held and vibrated from this area. That is why, certain combinations of energy structures are required on the stage; no one’s better or worse but it’s appropriate for that day’s channeling. Hence, Ellaeenah intuits a different group every time. This high blast of energy vibrates outward to all the sitters. Now, you will pick it up but it doesn’t mean that the 1^st row gets a stronger blast, then the 2^nd, then the 3^rd; not at all. It emanates outwards in this huge vibration and it is the sensitivity of the sitter that permits more or less in to their body. Again, the sitter, on a higher level, intuits how much of that energy he or she wants because it’s for their growth or not. As a sitter, I may just want to hear the logos but not take the energy in because it’s not for my growth, in which case I will do that. But if I am attracted, on a higher level, to the energy, I will open myself up and say, "Come. Let me bathe." That’s what happens and generally, when you open to that extent, you go into a light link and you feel like you’re falling asleep; most of the time, it’s not.

I was told, why do you think Hitler was such a powerful influence over the German people, at that time. He had the power to reach out to any energy type and instantly, put that out from himself so he could link with the people out there. So assuming he was talking to 10,000 people, on a higher level he would intuit, there are 7,250 types of energy beams here, I will put all that out. So, each person felt, he was talking to them individually and therefore they said, "I feel so great with this guy because he’s just like me; he’s a higher, bigger version of me." So even though their various purposes may have been different, each one felt he exactly resonated with them. This is the power a lot of public figures have and I’m being told that someone like Hitler had it in spades.