Death is very joyous. Death is really the first step to something new. It is when we view it as the last step of something that we have been used to, that we begin to view it with a sense of agitation, of fear, with resistance. But none of us would ever view it with resistance, if we accepted it as this is the time when new doors open. All of us have experienced the thrill that runs through us, (yes, sometimes a thrill accompanied by a little bit of fear too) but the thrill always predominates when something new is about to happen to us. When you’re going to get, let’s say, married, or there’s the birth of a child or a birthday: a new year, there’s that thrill, that excitement, that happiness. One greets it with, "What will happen now? What will it bring for me?" and there are those tremors of anxiety, yes, but there is so much joy, too. It’s something new; you’re facing a new phase.

If only we could shift our perception to that and see death for what it truly is, then we will see that it is this commonality of death that prevails in all situations; not only the physical death that humans and others in the physical realm experience. In fact, the physical death is really the easiest to face, because you never consciously experience it. As soon as you’ve experienced it, you’re already on the other side of the door. So that’s the easiest death to face.

There are other deaths that are slightly more difficult to face: primary amongst those, death of relationships, because we view this as something coming to an end. If one would view that same relationship as a new phase beginning, one would joyously greet that phase with a full awareness that the new phase of a relationship might or might not need the two physical beings to be in such close physical proximity. A new phase of a relationship sometimes involves the moving apart of the physical beings, but opens doors to a rich interaction of Spirit. It is when we hold on to what we know, to what we are familiar with, to what we are comfortable with, that death becomes our enemy, because you know that as soon as it knocks at your door, it will not take NO for an answer. It will force you into a new beginning.

But doesn’t that seem like a paradox that someone has to force you into a new beginning? Doesn’t, in fact, seem the most natural thing to do? It’s like my putting a gun to Diana’s head and saying, "You have to enjoy your birthday. You have to celebrate it." Birthdays are naturally enjoyed. Why? Because here is an opportunity for you to see something new unfolding for you, in the next 12 months.

Let us view everything from this perception, especially all our relationships. But we can only view them thus when we give ourselves, and the other, the freedom to grow, and be the way they need to be in any moment in the NOW. That’s when you will say, "I have evolved. S has evolved. With our evolution, our relationship has to evolve." If S and I held onto the past and said three years ago, we had ‘this’ kind of friendship and that must continue always, then what happens to our evolution that has taken place, to the growth process? Are we not ready to experience that growth process through our relationship, through our friendships, even if it means that the friendships, as we knew them, have to undergo a modification, an evolution? What is comfortable is what we hold onto. The fear of change is the greatest fear we all face. But let us understand why we face this fear.

What does CHANGE mean to us? Firstly, it brings up challenges: challenges of situations unknown, challenges of new ways of Being, new ways of thinking, new ways of interacting, new beliefs, new concepts, fresh new wisdom. All of this, when we speak of it, seems very appealing, but when one has to experience it, one begins to feel threatened because the familiar becomes like a very comfortable wall that we build around us, which is like our fortification. The tried and tested, the familiar, becomes our security net. If I know how D will react, then I know what she will say, I know what she will do; but when Diana evolves and her beliefs and her thoughts and her words change, then her change threatens me because it forces me to shift and change accordingly. It forces me into a situation where I have to now review my own beliefs, my own patterns, my own conditioning, my own thoughts; and though she may be ready to do that, I may not be as ready. That brings up my fear. My fortification now is being threatened.

Death does that to all of us; death of anything, all kinds of death. Let’s take a simple physical death; let’s say the dearth of a husband. If, by the will of God, I were to lose Y to physical death, the first thing I would have to face is, now all these various tasks which I just took for granted because they were done by Y, I will have to do and cope with personally. Now I have to take even more responsibility in the home. Now I have the responsibility of the children, their education, their marriages. Then comes the responsibility of facing my life alone. Then comes the question: without him am I incomplete? Has one part of me died or will this force me to look at myself? In such a situation too, one has to understand that death has opened two doors: one would be the spiritual doors for Y; the other would be the very real, tangibly physical doors for me, for my growth: to take full responsibility for self and family, to understand that I have now no one else with whom I can talk to about a decision for the family, it has to be my responsibility. Big one! It’s so easy to blame our spouses and say, "You made me take this decision, Y. I didn’t want to do it." When Y is not there, whom do you blame? There is no one to blame. All of this, this vast scenario comes before you, and that is why death is feared.

Newness is always a challenge, but if we know deep within our very core, that though a relationship has died or a person has died or there is the ‘death’ of a job situation, in all these ‘deaths’ there is something new that has opened up for you, you will move your focus from the grief, from the regret, from the blame, from the anger, and shift the focus towards searching for those doors leading to the unknown, the new, the challenging. Sometimes, the doors are not very obvious, not because they are not there, but because your vision is dimmed by the focus that you have given for so long to regret and tears and remorse and anger and guilt. By this focus your vision has dimmed. But, look for those doors; those doors will be there, wide open to embrace you, and you will be able to walk through the new doors of life to a rebirth.

Every death is a rebirth, every death. In fact, in relationships, those of us who have been in long term relationships, when you review your relationship today, compare it to what it was when you first started, it’s completely different, isn’t it? It seems an entirely different relationship and you sometimes wonder is this the same relationship, are we two the same persons? The entire scenario has changed, the equation has changed, and yet we say it’s the same relationship. The two individuals may be the same human beings, maybe they’re still ‘husband’ and ‘wife’, but the relationship has undergone several ‘deaths’ and ‘rebirths’. That relationship when you were just courting each other, when you were on Cloud 9 and everything seemed pink and rosy, and he brought the flowers and the chocolates, and nothing that he did was ever wrong, was one relationship. And then it died… it died and the doors were opened to another phase in the relationship where he didn’t need to constantly prove himself with the chocolates and the flowers, and you didn’t need to constantly blind yourself into believing he is flawless. You accepted all parts of him (maybe with a little resistance) but you knew they existed, as he knew that something less than ‘blind idealism’ existed within you. So the relationship went through rebirth there.

Many women tell me, "My husband changed the day we got married." And I’m saying, "How is that possible? How can he change the day he got married?" Ah! It went through another rebirth where he didn’t need to keep on impressing you and keep on proving himself to you. Maybe that is what you considered as changed the day we got married. But that’s great…. maybe you went through a relationship of getting to know each other completely, not through those rose-coloured spectacles. When you look at each other without those spectacles, that relationship often becomes one of fault-finding. Then that relationship dies and there comes, for most of us, yet another ‘rebirth’, where you have seen it all, and now the doors have opened to full acceptance of it all: where that first great flush of love returns but this time, in maturity; not out of being immature, not needing the flowers and the candles to say, "Ah! He loves me." Of course, the flowers and the candles feel great, if they appear occasionally. When Y comes home with one little rose and says, "This is for you", it feels great that when he saw the rose he thought of me. But I don’t need it anymore, so if he doesn’t bring that rose to me, I won’t feel that he’s stop loving me. It’s not the same relationship because he is not what he was and I am not what I was. We have both grown; we have both evolved. The physical seems to still be the same.

Actually, the ‘spirit’ behind the physical has also died. It’s a fresh new birth of Spirit. That, which was, at that point, Y, is no more. I’ve no idea when it died. I didn’t mourn it; I just welcomed the open doors of the death of that part or the death of those parts, knowing that they had finished their work together and now, these two have to do their work together. Just because the physical seems to remain the same, doesn’t mean that the relationship is with the same person. In fact, if I were to sit back and view it, I’m having a relationship with a completely different individual. Y is not even the same Y he was 5 years ago. Thank God! And I’m sure at this moment he’s also saying thank God, Ell isn’t the same Ell of five years ago. Five years is often like a lifetime.

Let us allow ourselves to evolve. Let relationships grow and modify. If they have to grow through a process of ‘death’, which is sometimes quite difficult, we’ve got to let it be. Not all ‘deaths’ are easy. Sometimes both of us have resisted the changing relationship but eventually, we’ve realized there is no way to fight it. The only way one can survive joyously and grow with this experience is to grow with that ‘death’. What do you hold onto when everything is so transient, when nothing is permanent, when day doesn’t remain day and turns to night and the moment you focus on night, it again becomes day, when the moment you look up in the sky, the star that was there 15 minutes ago, is no more? What does one hold on to? In fact, why should you hold on to anything?

Let there be joy of a moment-to-moment birth, a moment-to-moment newness, a moment-to-moment life of acceptance, acceptance of what IS in that moment; you will realize you won’t hold on to anything from the past. When that joy does not dwell in our hearts, what do we go through, again and again? He did this to me. She said that to me. That’s death while living. Let it go.

There are so many, I find, whose fathers and mothers have died years ago, but they will say, "My father never allowed me this. He always did this. He was always good to my brother, not to me." Sometimes, I ask, "How long ago did your father die?" I’m shocked, sometimes when they say 25 years. Your father is still as alive, in your memory, as he ever was. You have not allowed his death to open doors to you; to view him from a different perspective, which you could because you have evolved in 25 years. And that is the time death is sad. It’s not joyous because you haven’t taken the opportunity death has given you.

So let yourself die, moment-to-moment, and re-birth, moment-to-moment; a fresh new experience. Whatever happened even an hour ago was only an experience. LET IT GO. Don’t convert that experience into a strong memory one holds on to. It’s an experience. It’s like never having tasted fish and going to a seafood restaurant and eating fish: the experience may be pleasant or not pleasant, but you had the experience. You don’t hold onto it and live the rest of your days saying fish is bad. (Laughter) Yes, it is silly, isn’t it? But all of life is a ‘fish’ experience; all of it. If it was not pleasant, acknowledge it and let it go. Pleasant? Great! Let it go, too. In this way you die constantly, because you are born constantly.

Evolution is a process of death. There has to be death for there to be life. The old has to give way to the new. Don’t hold onto anything that was old. If you need to hold on to something, first ask yourself why. Why do I need to hold onto that? Is there a fear within? Let me evaluate that fear. What is the fear of newness that I am, at present experiencing? Be gentle to yourself. Be kind to yourself, but mostly honour yourself for your greatness. Honour yourself for the tremendous power that you have. Once you know your power, nothing, no death, small or big, will ever faze you. Remember the words of Caesar: The brave tastes death but once; the coward dies a thousand deaths. Why live in fear? What is the worst that can happen in any situation? Ask yourself that: what is the worst that can happen? When one sees it in that perspective, one understands that you have the power to meet the worst. Anything else that happens is always less than the worst.

I’m holding within me energies that are giving themselves no definition, no name, no label. Holding these energies consciously, I will answer questions set to me.

The Great White Brotherhood is our own… I might use the word… ‘earthly’ or human strain of energy that has expanded to reach levels of consciousness far above our own. The hierarchy, as we consider them, is nothing else but that strain of human consciousness that keeps expanding. At each level of expansion, there are certain Beingnesses, certain aspects of individuated energy. As the expansion can touch greater levels of consciousness, there you would find those individuated energies, again from the same strain of human consciousness, that are existing at that level of consciousness. That is how this hierarchy is formed.

The Great White Brotherhood comprise of varied levels of consciousness, but all levels beyond 7^th dimension; from that dimension onwards starts the Great White Brotherhood. But understand that I am using the word ‘dimension’ very loosely just to give you an idea of an expanded level of consciousness. It is that level of consciousness that needs to be attained before one is accepted into, what humanity has called, the Great White Brotherhood.

From there on, the growth pattern begins to differ slightly from our growth pattern. The way the Great White Brotherhood begins to expand is in complete service. The only expansion possible, in this body called the Great White brotherhood, is through complete and utter service. But here too, there is a twist. If the service is done because of the growth that is needed, it means that it’s coming from a sense of need, of desire. That service does not add to an expanded consciousness. That service, which is undertaken for the growth of another, without any other intent attached to it, that service leads to consciousness. The Brotherhood keeps expanding; there is no end to the Brotherhood. Let us assume X, so that I don’t need to give it a name, is at the highest level of expansion, in the Brotherhood, at present. That level of expansion is not the ultimate. It will keep expanding, and as the highest level keeps expanding, the rungs of the hierarchy naturally keep increasing in number, so more and more empowerment comes into the Great White Brotherhood.

There are several of the Great White Brotherhood who live embodied lives because their Essential Spirit Structure have attained the minimum 7^th dimensional consciousness, but they need to be in embodied form because their entire consciousness, as a structure, is not balanced. The Essential part has already reached, and is moving beyond, but there is one area of the structure that has not kept up with the momentum of this expansion. That area needs the boost to come up to this level, so that there is a completely balanced growth in that individuated aspect, and so they take embodiment.

Those aspects of consciousness, which reach the very high aspects of the Brotherhood, must reach that only out of BALANCE. They do not face any imbalance. The lower aspects of the Great White Brotherhood may face this imbalance, and need to take birth.

First, one has to understand the difference between the universal energy and the cosmic energy. The universal energy comprises of all that energy which a human being can access, in physical consciousness; not all may access it, but there is a possibility of any human being, being able to access universal energy, in all its magnificence, in all its completion, at a very conscious level.

Then we go into cosmic energy. The cosmic energy essentially is one which a human being, in physical structure, cannot consciously access, but given the required expanse of Spirit, embodied Spirit can access it at a level which I’m going to call ‘a non-conscious conscious level’. The cosmic energy, to be taken into the physical body, needs to then come through the universal energy, because the universal energy really is all that humanity has put out. And remember that all those whom we consider Masters were also a part of humanity. The level of empowerment they have given our universe remains at that expanded level. That is why our universal energy is huge and magnificent in itself.

The cosmic energy comes straight from Non-Energy. It comes through modifications, which are far fewer in number than the universal energy. So you can say that the cosmic energy is a far less modified Non-Energy than the universal energy. Having undergone fewer modifications than the universal energy, it cannot easily be accessed by the physical structure, and thus needs to come through, is carried on the waves of universal energy. What we consider as the electric blue light, or we consider it to be like the platinum ray, these are terms we are giving ourselves. These terms we give so that we understand that a strain of cosmic energy that is coming through is, at present, slightly different from what was coming through a little earlier, and different from what will come through in future. So universal energy provides us with a name because for us, as physical structures, name gives us a definite definition.

This is the electric blue light and yet, it is neither electric nor blue. It is a strain of the cosmic energy, which is a very little modified Non-Energy that is coming through, at present, on Earth, for the purpose of removal of all 3 dimensional memory. It works on the memory of humanity, as a whole; that which we do not remember, we will not carry forward. So coming on the waves of universal energy, it aids us in not remembering. But when we say we forget, we actually mean that we assimilate. We can’t ever forget anything; it means we completely assimilate, take back into our Core, all that is our Power.

Each and every one of us, in that sense, belongs to the Great White Brotherhood; each and every one of us, in that sense, belongs to the Christ Office. We experience ourselves only in this limited form, but we are, in a unified form, far greater than this limited form. So, in that sense of the very large picture, of course, we all are part of the Great White Brotherhood because that aspect of S, whom she calls the Maitreya, is none other than her own strain of energy that has reached that level of expansion, which humanity has given a defined name, the Maitreya. But when one would trace it backwards, one would see that this same strain of energy would be going into S or going into you, because that same strain of energy, as it comes into its lower levels of consciousness, breaks itself up into so many parts, all of which will experience every thing together, because at those levels of consciousness, levels being low, experiences can come only pertaining to that level of consciousness; whereas, if I split myself up into so many parts of me, each part experiencing something restricted to that consciousness, eventually I have experienced ALL. So of course, we all are part of the Great White Brotherhood. We all are part of the Christ Office.

The Christ Office is that part of the Great White Brotherhood that has undertaken a special mission. Because we are human we need a label in order to understand; we still don’t understand it all completely, but even to give us some semblance of understanding of how the universe is, how energy divides itself, how it functions, we give it these labels, like the Christ Office.

Earlier you touched upon that aspect of energy which holds that aspect of cosmic force which erases memory, and now you’re touching upon that aspect of energy which holds memory, which retains it.

Now why is it necessary to retain that memory? We all know that evolution neither started with us, nor is it going to end with us. We are all part of evolution, part of the process of Non-Energy experiencing itself as Energy. Memories are kept safe, secure; they are treasured. They are like sacred possessions kept safe. When another strand of evolution will begin its journey, those same memories will gently be released upon energy waves. That strand will not experience, will not go through the same things as us, but our memories aid them in their evolution process.

Let me give you an example: the memories of evolutions that have gone before us are aiding us now. The memories of those evolutionary species, which we call aliens, are aiding us now. What I am receiving is that, at several times when an alien being comes through a medium and talks to you, guiding you, the channel is actually ‘touching’ the memory, and not the alien being at all. But the memory is kept so safe, so secure, so strong, that when it is presented to you in this form, it seems as though it is an actual entity.

The Brotherhood of Keepers has this as its main task. The other tasks coming from memory are keeping everything in balance. There is growth taking place in all aspects of energy, not only species, so when I say all aspects of energy, I’m talking of ‘universes’ as aspects of energy, ‘galaxies’ as aspects of energy, what is below the Earth as aspects of energy. Evolution is multi-pronged. We tend to think it only from our perspective, but we are only one ‘thread’ of evolution. All the ‘threads’ work together to form this big picture. The Keepers hold that picture in memory and, therefore, growth and balance has to constantly be maintained.

I’m now going to then focus on only one aspect of energy that modified itself to being us. Please understand I’m not now referring to the WHOLE. I’m only focusing upon an area which S wants clarification of.

That aspect of energy, you must understand, is also a modified energy. Non-Energy modified itself into Unified Energy, without any separation. That first modification was essential for Non-Energy to begin its process of manifestation, of manifested awareness of experience. That was the first modification for our strain; a part of Unified Energy modified itself to experience this part or this ‘thread’ of evolution. Now this thread of evolution modified itself into, let us give it a term, the ‘Earth-type Energy’. When it modified itself into that, then it had to separate itself even further, in order to then experience itself. Just as I said earlier, the Maitreya modified himself into so many parts, that is the same process that takes place at all levels.

Now that energy, Earth-type Energy, modified itself into ‘human beings’. But we know that before that, were the various different experiences, like stone, metal, fish, bird, and so on. I’m not going to focus on those right now, so let’s say, human beings. So you, S___, were a drop in that modified part, which was called the Earth-type Energy. This energy wanted to experience itself as this ‘thread’. This thread, although it seems one, has a million tiny filaments running through it. One of the filaments is called S____.

That is the separation you have referred to: becoming a ‘filament’ so that you may then again become the ‘thread’. You became very ‘small’ in order then to become ‘large’. That thread, when it is completely stretched to its limit, which means all experiences over, will go back and become part of the Earth-type energy. When the Earth-type energy has completely experienced itself, it will go back and become part of the Unified Energy. When Unified Energy has completed all experience, it will go back and become Non-Energy.

First of all, let us understand ‘lingam’, and then your question will be answered automatically. If you will, throw your mind back, D____, to an entire channeling where the Shiva Lingam was explained to us. The yoni has the Creationary Energy, out of which rises the male symbol, which we have called the lingam, which is the symbol of the Executionary Energies. Both merge together to form the complete symbol. If that is so, then there has to be a Cosmic Lingam.

Understand again, that the cosmic energies we touch, the cosmic energies we access/will access, are/will be our strain of cosmic energies; that strain of cosmic energy, K___, which will be able to exist in ‘male’ and ‘female’ duality. There are strains of cosmic energies that cannot survive in a realm of duality; that need a realm, a dimension, of complete Unified Energy Structure. So we are accessing not complete cosmic energies, but those strains that can survive and empower universal energy even in a dimension of duality. That strain, of cosmic energy, D____, is the Cosmic Lingam that you are referring to. The strain of cosmic energy within itself is a Unified Energy; it does not have ‘male’ and ‘female’ distinctions. It is Unified Energy but it can contain within itself, the Creationary and the Executionary as diverse, and yet ONE.

The Cosmic Lingam, if one had to visualize it, would never have the yoni and the lingam as separate. It would be one whole. Sometimes, in your vision, it might appear only vertical. Sometimes, in your vision, it might appear only flat.

How to use the Cosmic Lingam? The best way is to attach the Cosmic Lingam into your energy grid; to literally form an attachment. Please understand that cosmic energies need volition on your part. They come down into our realm, and they remain untouched. Our energies, however contaminated you may consider the Earth energies to be, its negativity cannot touch Cosmic Energies. They remain untouched, in their fullest state of empowerment, till out of complete volition you wish to access, hook on to, that cosmic energy. In that sense, the Cosmic Lingam is in the HERE and the NOW.

The fact that you have even got a name ‘cosmic lingam’ means that it exists.

There is nothing that this brain can ever make up. It does not have the ability to make up anything. The brain has the ability to access levels of consciousness, levels of energy, which it cannot make ‘sense’ of. That is why I ask you not to try to only make ‘sense’ of things, because due to that desire we will often restrict our experiences. The brain cannot make ‘sense’ of it and goes into its own little imbalance because of that, because it cannot make sense of it. It has ‘registered’ but the brain does not know whether it pertains to the eyes, the nose, the mouth, the ears, touch or taste, and it gets into a state of confused imbalance, giving you the feeling I have made it up. It does not exist. If you were to coin any word right now, which is, in your perception, gibberish, please understand that that word would a systematic coming together of sounds that already exist in the energy realms right now. That is why you have been able to put them together; the brain considers it ‘gibberish’ but it is already present.

So you can link to that Cosmic Lingam; let it take whatever ‘view’ it needs to take. It might need to take an image for your easy understanding. Allow it to take shape or colour or form or sensation, whatever it needs to take for you to know it’s there. Once you’ve hooked onto it, there is a constant flow; it’s a pipeline then into your energy structure. It’s there and you can use it as you wish.

Firstly, one has to understand that most of us look at Shiva as a deity, as a god, as a ‘being’ and none of this is true. That statue of Shiva has been given a physical form so that we can see with our physical eyes, so that then the brain can accept there is ‘Shiva’.

Shiva goes far beyond a physical form. Non-Energy modified itself into Unified Energy which then modified itself into ‘our’ strain of energy. That energy is Shiva. So you are touching our outermost levels of consciousness, when you refer to Shiva energy. That energy can have no physical sense at all.

I’m being asked to link the question of Shiva energy to L____’s choice of topic for today, death, for all of us to understand why Shiva has been called the destroyer.

The Shiva energy is actually Unified Energy. Like Cosmic Energy, it has the power of the ‘male’ and ‘female’ within it, but unlike the Cosmic Energy, which will never separate into a manifested aspect of the ‘male’ and ‘female’, the Shiva Energy can. It can, when needed, modify itself into two aspects of itself: one, which we call the ‘male’, which we have given the name Shiva, which is really a wrong name because it’s the UNITY that is Shiva, and the other, which we have called the Shakti, considering that to be the ‘feminine’.

The process of any death is really the process of the manifestation of Shiva Energy. It creates with its ‘female aspect’ and it executes the creation with its ‘male’ aspect. There is no death. It’s just a removing of old, and creating anew. It is because death has not been understood that Shiva Energy has often been linked with that of the destroyer. The Shiva is not the destroyer at all. The Shiva energy is actually the purest and the most powerful energy of birthing. It is not at all the energy of death and destruction, as we have considered it to be.

Now when we focus upon Shiva, when we offer our adoration to Shiva, please understand what you are doing very consciously. In that symbolic adoration of Shiva, you are opening yourself, inviting this energy to bring in rebirth, within you, in your physical, as well as in your environment. You cannot then resent that the old, which has to be removed for the birthing process, will be a natural part of the Shiva energy functioning.

Thank you All.