DEPRESSION (3)

Q: Sir, I’d like to ask a question about an illness. A friend of mine is again suffering from very bad mental depression and has just come out of the hospital. Could you help me to please understand her illness?

Child, she has had so many lives of being only centered on herself. In between her lifetimes she has been taught about soul connections, she has been made to experience the ‘losing’ of herself in a vast sea of souls, but even in non-physical form, my son, even when she has been with us, she did not wish to accept that she is all and all are her. Even between lifetimes she has constantly struggled with the small ‘i’ and she has learnt no other lessons due to this. The skills that she has learnt have only been learnt because she wishes the small ‘i’ to be more skillful. Her guides have tried, but she has been on this one plane for times much longer than most souls, and this struggle continues in physical form. But, you see, my son, in physical form she does not get the all round all time attention that she thinks she deserves. She truly still experiences herself as an individual apart from any other. And she experiences herself as an individual who is very, very special. Of course she is, but then, so is every individual. For her there is no one but the ‘i’, and when the small ‘i’ does not get the adequate attention it will use this depression to get it. The physical has learnt that this is one sure way of being the center of attention. You will notice, my son, that if there is an illness in the home, or a death in the home, or some other problem which turns the attention away from her, within a short time she will go into this state. And others will think that it is because she cannot cope with that tragedy or calamity or crisis. But, no, that is not the case. It is because that situation took the attention away from her.

Q: Sir, in this particular case, from a spiritual point of view, has she undertaken to go through all the trauma she is going through?

She has chosen nothing. This might be a good point to introduce you all to a different kind of blueprint. Souls like this child come with no blueprint. No blueprint like the ones you all have. She has not come to experience anything; she has not come to learn any lessons because she does not think that she needs to. Her only blueprint has been to come here and to ensure that she is once again the center of attention.

Q: Sir, you can choose a negative blueprint like this?

She has not chosen this. There is no choice in the sense that you had. When you chose your blueprint you spent a long, long time to decide on issues. For her there was no choice. There was no choice because she never allowed her council of guides or council of masters to help her. She, and souls such as her (and there are many) merely decide to come to the physical form because they find that in the physical form it is easier to give greater attention to the ‘i’. In soul form, from all quarters, all they see is unity and this is not at all what they desire. There is a deep fear that if I merge with other souls I will be lost forever. But, it is sad because if this soul allowed her guides to come close, to show her there is no loss…

Q: Sir, is she exercising the choice of free will here?

Of course. It is her choice to come with, what this son called a ‘negative’ blueprint. We don’t call it negative we call it different. But, it is sad.

Q: Sir, frankly I am quite fed up with trying to help her but I know I must…..

Oh, you must not. You see, my son, you must be like guides, counselors, masters, and us.

We allow mistake after mistake. We are there to support you, we are there to pick you up, we are there to take you ahead, and we are there to overlook all weaknesses. Why? Because we can see that there is a genuine attempt made to grow. We are not going to punish you for your human faults; we are not going to punish you for going away from us a little while. (You are entitled to get a little tired of us sometimes Now don’t ask me if we get tired of you, we will not answer that. {All laugh }) But, if, my son, we do not see the genuine attempt, we will withdraw. When our energy is not welcomed, we respect that and we move away. We move away completely. But, if there is even one moment of genuine attempt we will be back, at once. The same should apply to you, to all of you, my children. Remember this. Our energies, being almost limitless we still do not waste them. You must respect your own energy. If someone insists on hurting themselves in spite of all effort that you have made, if genuinely within your soul you know that there is nothing more that you can do for this soul because this soul does not wish to do anything for itself, respect your own energy, and divert it to useful purpose, and respect the choice of this soul not to listen to your words. Just because you think your words are wise do not keep pushing them onto others. So you see, my son, you must not. There is no must. Do not put impositions upon yourselves, because when you do that your energy is torn apart into two.  One part of the energy is fighting with your own resentment and the other part of your energy is really trying to help, but it can’t. So the entire endeavor is futile. Gather all your energy and use it for more productive purpose.

A: Sir, I thank you for your incredibly insightful observation. Thank you.